Prayer
A simple request
Sometimes we are scared
To get things off our chest
Dont let life be a bear
You too can be blessed
Christ called us to share
Even if the storm is about to crest
Don’t just stare
What you face may just be a test
Prayer can break that snare
Time to confess🙏
Lately I have been asked even more, “how is your wife doing?” Overall the fact that she is still here with us has been the biggest blessing ever. I thank God daily for each day and even each moment that I get to spend with her.
We used to love going on long walks together. We would talk about the future, share stories of our past, and even share thoughts about growing our family. So much has changed in such a short time.
Yesterday I had to explain to a coworker that my wife has a hard time just letting the dogs outside. God has done an amazing thing by healing Kristeen enough to get her off of the oxygen, but the battle she still faces today is her heart rate jumps up to 140 bpm anytime she gets up to walk or even standing to brush her teeth.
At this point Kristeen is not even able to walk around a store with me, she can’t do the simple things like go grocery shopping, and even trying on clothes because she has lost weight is a struggle, but no matter how much life has changed for us, God has still showed us that He is in control.
I don’t mind pushing my wife around in a wheel chair. We have been to the zoo plenty of times with the kids and each time I push her all over the park. My bride is my gift from the Lord and no matter how much “work” I have to do because of the cancer, I do it willingly because I love my wife.
Don’t get me wrong, I do have my moments when I become short tempered. I have to constantly remind myself to be patient and loving each time Kristeen calls my name because she needs something. She is not doing it because she is lazy, but instead because she needs me now more than ever. I have to submit to her needs and serve her.
I don’t know what the future holds but I serve a God that knows it all and what we will face. People try to tell me that I am strong but I remind them that I am weak and my strength is found in the Lord. I can’t imagine facing difficulty without God on my side.
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.
The doctor said we might have 6 months if no treatment or maybe a year with treatment. So far it is been 10 months since we found out about the stage 4 Lung Cancer and each time we see God defying the doctors prognosis we give Him the glory. A doctor can only do what he knows, but God is the true healer. God can heal when medicine can’t.
I don’t know what you are facing today, but I ask you, have you come to God in prayer about that situation? If you are trying to do it alone the weight will be too much to handle. Call upon the name of the Lord and exercise that faith! Just like our physical bodies, our spiritual body needs to be used consistently.
Philippians 4:6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.
When you were born
My world was torn
By when I looked into your eyes
Oh what a surprise
God blessed me with a baby boy
Oh such joy
Your mom almost died
The doctors said her levels were too high
I was focused on you
God told me He would pull her through
The nurse combed your hair
I watched as your lungs took in air
Amazed by what God has done
I can’t believe my first son
But isn’t that amazing
As we stand there in awe & gazing
We know not what the future holds
We trust God’s words that have been told
Raise him up in the Lord
Even when he says he is bored
The word of God will give him a rock
That he can fall back onto when shock
Arises within his heart
Because the enemy will shoot his fiery dart
To attack the ones who are weak
Even now as we speak
But my trust remains in You
The only one who has brought me through
The good the bad the ugly
The nasty the terrible the pain
Thank you Jesus for Your grace
Because I have tried to run this race
I can’t keep up anymore
My son I give to You to watch once more
Guide him when the darkness comes
Teach him who to turn from
Lord I must trust your word
You provide for all the birds
Surely You will take care of my son
Every time he tries to run
Love him back into Your arms
Raise him like a fawn on a farm
Nourish his young mind
There isn’t much time left to grind
Thank you God for taking my fears
Please wipe away all my tears
If you only knew
What happened when I was through
I tried to give up
But for some reason God refilled my cup
I tried to run away
But God called me back and invited me to stay
How many times must I try to run
Every time my life comes undone
My pain is more than I can bear
Which is why I cry to Jesus because this world is not fair
Broken relationships almost did me in
Then I was reminded of how Jesus forgives our sin
But God you just don’t understand
How many times I have been burnt, I can’t count them on one hand
Lord I can’t do this anymore
I keep falling and hitting the floor
Why can’t you end this life of mine
You are in charge not Father Time
No matter what the score
I can’t come back anymore
This game is over, I am finished
I was strong like Popeye and his spinach
But then reality set in
And I finally gave in
How can I face tomorrow
When today already has me in sorrow
You don’t understand
I have always been banned
Turned away
Every person pushed, that came my way
But now You say it will all be okay?
How do You know, this pain won’t go away
I pray and pray and ask to be set free
But the shade continues to come like an oak tree
Caught up in darkness no matter how hard I fight
Jesus I think it is time to turn off this light
And say goodnight
Then I will be alright
Stuck in darkness with nothing to see
I don’t think You have the power to break me free
I should have been gone a long time ago
But You came and sat next to me like a bro
God my pain it causes such strain
Just like my newspaper caught in the rain
The words are beginning to smear
Please take away all my fear
I know I can’t do this alone
But thank God You are sitting upon the throne
Help me God to over come
Remove everything that has caused me to become numb
I pray dear God that today will change
I am tired of feeling so strange
My bride needs You more than me
Yet my own fear is all I can see
Lord we pray for continued healing
You know how hard I have been dealing
Trying to get past what satan has been stealing
Back on my knees I continue kneeling
Praying for something more
Praying you will open a new door
We need a breakthrough in her body and for my soul
Restore what satan has stole
God my heart is weak
I come before You, the outcome looks bleak
Please dear God give me more time
The time has come for me to end this rhyme
I am counting every blessing
Especially while I am stressing
God has provided
Even while I was undecided
My world was falling
On Jesus I was calling
Save me Father from all this struggle
Too many things I am trying to juggle
My strength is failing
I turn to You for the unveiling
Of Your promises
Just like doubting Thomas
My faith longs to see Your nail scarred hands
My fears continue to add up like grains of sand
Yet I should cast my fears on You
Because You care for me & that is true
My thoughts fill my mind
They cause me to be blind
Father touch my head
Make it clear instead
Open my life to all that is true
Continue to pull me through
My eyes are full of tears
My pain no one shares
For only I can bear
This struggle has no compare
Others offer help
But all I can do is whelp
My words I do share
So others can see my prayers
I offer up all I have to You my King
Remove this fear & sting
Put up a shield of protection
Remove my sins like an injection
Cure me from all the pain
Set me free from every chain
I call upon Your name
Cleanse me from all blame
God I need You
You are the glue
The substance that holds me together
That calms the weather
Your words bound together by leather
Your voice soft like a feather
Let this Bible teach me
May it bring me to my knees
Teach me to wholly trust
Teach me to always discuss
Your words for all to hear
That soon You draw near❗️
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So now I sit and wait
Wondering if it is too late
Waiting for answers to my questions
Everyone giving me suggestions
Oh what a journey this has been
Asking God when when when
When will this be over
When will Your healing spillover
Day and night we pray
That she will reach her next birthday
Lord we need more time
We know You are working overtime
All of our needs we bring before You
We know there is still much to do
We call upon Your name
The name of Jesus we claim
We cry out with our souls
Please make Kristeen whole
Each day brings new circumstances
Yet You have provided for all of our finances
God you amaze
Our hearts set ablaze
We believe You raised
Jesus Christ as everyone gave praise
Do it again Lord
We pray in one accord
We call upon Thee
To set Kristeen free
Bind up that cancer
You are the only answer
May all the people see
In Jesus name cancer does flee
We place our faith in You
Please make Kristeen brand new
I have entered my cry
Now I wait for Your reply…
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Who am I
A question we all ask but why
Looking for the meaning of life
Yet this life cuts like a knife
A wound deep beneath the skin
Almost like it was built-in
Why do I have this pain
Building up like a bad sprain
Everyone offers help to lift you up
But that is only a momentary pickup
So today who has reached out
Who has helped me with this doubt
I implore you to never give up
Stop trying to cover-up
All the pain that holds you down
All the pain that causes you to frown
All the pain that makes you feel let down
All the pain that makes you want to breakdown
There has to be more
Than what you can buy in the store
I want you to keep singing
Your voice always in my ear bringing
My spirit up
Even when I have a buildup
Of pain
All caught in my brain
But the easy answer
Is there is no cure for cancer
Who dealt me these cards
I have always been on guard
Trying to protect the ones I love
Keep them close to me like a glove
But no matter how hard I try
The end continues to draw nigh
I want to enjoy today
Please don’t push me away
I know you are scared
But that is why Jesus shared
His life on the cross
To remind satan that He was the boss
Today I plead with you
To let go of everything that is making you blue
It is time to restore all that is true
God’s word kicks evil like Kung Fu
I can’t pull you through
But if you have faith Jesus will come through
Can I ask you a question
Will you stop all the aggression
Will you begin with confession
This is just my suggestion
Faith removes the depression
And leaves a positive impression
We are made in the image of God
Except Adam & Eve allowed us to become flawed
Nonetheless by the grace of God
We can now applaud
For God has given us a way
So we will no longer betray
The Son of Man
This has been God’s plan
To sacrifice His only Son
He said “it is finished” & then it was done
God help me remain strong
All the day long
Even when life happens
Help me to continue laughing
I give my life to You
I am waiting for a breakthrough
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How can you understand
Cancer was never planned
How did this happen
Where is your compassion
People complaining about nothing
Always talking about something
Yet this pain is not leaving
Here I am grieving
The world constantly deceiving
Yet the sheep are still unbelieving
How can I move forward
The questions sound like a broken recorder
How is she doing
Questions sound like they are interviewing
We are waiting on a miracle
Something that is biblical
Not searching for “a” healer
Yet constantly checking for a fever
Looking for “The Healer”
To bind up the cancer like a concealer
Not just hide it
But transform it
Remove the cells that are attacking
While the doctors are tracking
So they can see
That God can do anything
Meanwhile I get inspired
Even when I am tired
God keeps speaking to my mind
Wanting me to reach out to the blind
I am just a man looking to share God’s plan
I reached out to this particular man
Where is the man that wanted to be
More than what the world said he could achieve
A man chasing after God
Instead of trying to avoid the rod
Common man don’t give me this or that
It is time to get back on track
What more are you waiting for
God is standing, knocking, on your front door❗️🚪
I can’t save you
But I can remind you
Jesus died to save you
He won’t run from you
No matter how long it takes
He waits patiently even when we try to be fake
Our feelings may be hurt
Put back on your shirt
Nobody wants to see that
It is time to fall flat
On our faces
And get back in God’s good graces. 🙏
I praise God for my pain
Because He allows me to see through the rain
It is just a storm
The prayers continue to transform
All my pain into a testimony
No I am not trying to be phony
My story is not over
It is hard to find like a 4 leaf clover
Buried among many chapters
I am praying for the rapture
Jesus I don’t know how much more I can take
Take a hold of my soul and shake
Cause me to remain strong
Continue to show me where I belong
Your power is stronger
And keeps me fighting longer
Hold me up
Fill my cup
Cause me to overflow
Pour out so others may grow
Closer to You Lord
It is You alone that I adore❗️
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Don’t be so raw that you’re hard
Words so sharp they cut like a chard
We need people that speak truth
Bring back that old phone booth
Super Man lost his cover
It’s time for us to rediscover
Jesus died for your heart
He took the shot like a fiery dart
Satan tried Him
God saved Him
Rose again like a boss
But you too busy shopping at Ross
Looking for a bargain
Meanwhile Jesus rose again
He wants to save you
Ring that up, that is true
Stop trying to blow money on worldly things
Salvation is better than a diamond ring
No matter how many times
I keep spitting the same rhyme
It falls on death ears
Too busy drinking them beers
Does the truth hurt
You to busy trying to flirt
Looking for love in all the wrong places
But even CSI can’t find any traces
Love is not found just anywhere
Love is it found at the fair
Love is not found in any pair
Jesus died to remove the despair
Jesus is love
He came from above
To take it all on the cross
To give you access to come across
There is only one way
Don’t let anyone lead you astray
Jesus is the only
Stop falling for the phony
The one true God
Now that is something I can applaud❗️
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