If You Only Knew – Poem

If you only knew

What happened when I was through

I tried to give up

But for some reason God refilled my cup

I tried to run away

But God called me back and invited me to stay

How many times must I try to run

Every time my life comes undone

My pain is more than I can bear

Which is why I cry to Jesus because this world is not fair

Broken relationships almost did me in

Then I was reminded of how Jesus forgives our sin

But God you just don’t understand

How many times I have been burnt, I can’t count them on one hand

Lord I can’t do this anymore

I keep falling and hitting the floor

Why can’t you end this life of mine

You are in charge not Father Time

No matter what the score

I can’t come back anymore

This game is over, I am finished

I was strong like Popeye and his spinach

But then reality set in

And I finally gave in

How can I face tomorrow

When today already has me in sorrow

You don’t understand

I have always been banned

Turned away

Every person pushed, that came my way

But now You say it will all be okay?

How do You know, this pain won’t go away

I pray and pray and ask to be set free

But the shade continues to come like an oak tree

Caught up in darkness no matter how hard I fight

Jesus I think it is time to turn off this light

And say goodnight

Then I will be alright

Stuck in darkness with nothing to see

I don’t think You have the power to break me free

I should have been gone a long time ago

But You came and sat next to me like a bro

God my pain it causes such strain

Just like my newspaper caught in the rain

The words are beginning to smear

Please take away all my fear

I know I can’t do this alone

But thank God You are sitting upon the throne

Help me God to over come

Remove everything that has caused me to become numb

I pray dear God that today will change

I am tired of feeling so strange

My bride needs You more than me

Yet my own fear is all I can see

Lord we pray for continued healing

You know how hard I have been dealing

Trying to get past what satan has been stealing

Back on my knees I continue kneeling

Praying for something more

Praying you will open a new door

We need a breakthrough in her body and for my soul

Restore what satan has stole

God my heart is weak

I come before You, the outcome looks bleak

Please dear God give me more time

The time has come for me to end this rhyme

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We Didn’t Plan This – Poem

How can you understand

Cancer was never planned

How did this happen

Where is your compassion

People complaining about nothing

Always talking about something

Yet this pain is not leaving

Here I am grieving

The world constantly deceiving

Yet the sheep are still unbelieving

How can I move forward

The questions sound like a broken recorder

How is she doing

Questions sound like they are interviewing

We are waiting on a miracle

Something that is biblical

Not searching for “a” healer

Yet constantly checking for a fever

Looking for “The Healer”

To bind up the cancer like a concealer

Not just hide it

But transform it

Remove the cells that are attacking

While the doctors are tracking

So they can see

That God can do anything

Meanwhile I get inspired

Even when I am tired

God keeps speaking to my mind

Wanting me to reach out to the blind

I am just a man looking to share God’s plan

I reached out to this particular man

Where is the man that wanted to be

More than what the world said he could achieve

A man chasing after God

Instead of trying to avoid the rod

Common man don’t give me this or that

It is time to get back on track

What more are you waiting for

God is standing, knocking, on your front door❗️🚪

I can’t save you

But I can remind you

Jesus died to save you

He won’t run from you

No matter how long it takes

He waits patiently even when we try to be fake

Our feelings may be hurt

Put back on your shirt

Nobody wants to see that

It is time to fall flat

On our faces

And get back in God’s good graces. 🙏

I praise God for my pain

Because He allows me to see through the rain

It is just a storm

The prayers continue to transform

All my pain into a testimony

No I am not trying to be phony

My story is not over

It is hard to find like a 4 leaf clover

Buried among many chapters

I am praying for the rapture

Jesus I don’t know how much more I can take

Take a hold of my soul and shake

Cause me to remain strong

Continue to show me where I belong

Your power is stronger

And keeps me fighting longer

Hold me up

Fill my cup

Cause me to overflow

Pour out so others may grow

Closer to You Lord

It is You alone that I adore❗️
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Walk With God – Sermon Notes

Welcome back to Faith Matters, today I am super excited to be recording this message because it hit me like a ton of bricks the other night.  I was spending time up and posting about God like I love to do while my wife is sleeping and then like a bright light I saw what God wanted me to share.  But, before I jump into that I just want to say how awesome our God is.  Just reviewing some data surrounding the @KNGMusic twitter account and saw that in one month, 243 tweets reached 1.59 million people.  That right there isn’t me that is God doing something awesome.  I am just a regular person that tries to be available and allow God to work in and through my life.

Now enough about that let us open in prayer.  Heavenly Father I just want to thank you for how awesome you are.  Sometimes this world is going too fast for us to see how many times you step in and bless us.  I want to thank you for the opportunity to share my testimonies with others and the unique things you ask me to say.  I pray that today you will give me just the right words to prick someone’s heart and let the Holy Spirit conviction lead them back to you.  Without you Lord we are just empty vessels looking for anything and everything to satisfy that emptiness.  Be with me Lord as I share the vision you gave me the other night.  Help me speak the right words so that they know it is of you Father.  In the name of Jesus, amen.

In preparing for this message I was hit with another tweet.  God never stops to amaze me.  Just recently posted this:

“God doesn’t have to give you a breath test to know that you are intoxicated with sin.  “Just one more time” made you unsafe.  Get right today!” – @KNGMusic

Wow, just wow.  God works in mysterious ways and when He wants to intervene I just incline my ear to listen.

Jumping back on track I wanted to entitle this message today “Walking With God.”  If I was to ask any Christian if they are right with God I am sure the typical response would be yes.  If I was to ask them if they are walking with God I am sure I would probably get the same type of response with another yes.  So let’s look at the definition of walking for a moment.

Definition of walk –

  1. move at a regular and fairly slow pace by lifting and setting down each foot in turn, never having both feet off the ground at once.
  2. cause or enable (someone or something) to walk or move as though walking.

Now after reading that simple definition to you, walking with God actually doesn’t seem that difficult.  To me it almost sounds like just going through the motions.  Are you going through the motions right now with your walk with God?  I love to ask questions like this because I was there.  I was that person that was “walking” so to speak with God, but wasn’t paying attention to the lesson that He was trying to teach me.  I was too consumed with myself and everything that I wanted to do.  Almost like I was forced to walk with the Lord instead of having my own desire.

Want to know what caused me to wake up from dragging my feet to wanting to run with God?  It took me losing everything of this world that I cherished to realize how much I needed God and only Him.  I had to be “rebuilt” in a manner that was based upon God first and not what I wanted.  I was at a point that I could no longer try to hide from God, but instead turned to God for my support.  I needed Him now more than ever.

God came through for me.  He was there with me when nobody else could be.  He opened my eyes to the decisions that I needed to make for my family to overcome the loss.  Almost like when my fear kept rising, God would say to me look at me, don’t look away.  Just like when Jesus told Peter to walk on water.

Matthew 14:27-33

27 But immediately Jesus spoke to them, saying, “Take heart; it is I. Do not be afraid.”28 And Peter answered him, “Lord, if it is you, command me to come to you on the water.” 29 He said, “Come.” So Peter got out of the boat and walked on the water and came to Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind,[e] he was afraid, and beginning to sink he cried out, “Lord, save me.” 31 Jesus immediately reached out his hand and took hold of him, saying to him, “O you of little faith, why did you doubt?” 32 And when they got into the boat, the wind ceased. 33 And those in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.”

Peter was doing fine until he took his eye off of Jesus and started to look around and became scared.  When we walk with Jesus we should always fixate our eyes upon Him.  This is crucial because if we are meandering down the path with Jesus and not keeping up then we will surely lose sight of Him.  When Jesus is not in our sight or vision then we feel the flesh rise up quickly against us.  How can we overcome our own fleshly desires without the help of the Lord?

1 Corinthians 10:13

No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.

If God knows our limitations then surely He will stop us before we get out of control right?  God has given each of us our own free will.  God will cause a check in our spirit when we are about to do something that we know we shouldn’t.  If we truly love God then we would choose not to sin against Him.

Let me share something I heard on the radio today that was spot on.  A mother said this to her daughter who was raised to love the Lord but was having an unhealthy relationship.  She said, “Do you love your SIN, more than you love your God?”  I feel this is pivotal for us as Christians to examine our walk.  If we continue to allow ourselves to sin then we are actually putting that sin above and before God.  We must ask the Holy Spirit to help us overcome and give us strength to rebuke the enemy.

Galatians 5:16
But I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh.

I implore you, please seek to walk with the Lord daily and continually.  Do not lend to haste and drag your feet for surely nothing good will come of it.  Ask the Lord to walk with you hand in hand, ask Him to take control of your life, ask Him to lead and guide you so that you may be at peace with Him.  Our Heavenly Father is a gentleman, He will not push His way into your life, but He will stand at the door and knock until you invite Him in so don’t delay another moment, ask Him into your life.

My second vision that I was given has to do my dad.  Have you ever gone to the store with your dad and he let you get something special since you were the only one with him at the time?  I quickly learned this about my dad, if I went with him then I could get something special whether it was a piece of candy, a snack, or even ice cream.  I also learned that when I stayed home and didn’t go with my dad then I got nothing.

Now taking that same thought process, if you don’t go with the Father then how will you receive the blessing?  If I keep telling God, nah that is okay I don’t really want to go out there today, can’t I just stay home?  God isn’t going to grab you by the ear kicking and screaming, He is going to quietly say okay because He has given you that free will.  But imagine what type of blessings that I could be missing out on because I chose to say no, I chose to stay home, I chose to linger back and do what I wanted because I thought it would be more interesting.

Now pause for a moment and think about a time that God asked you to step out of your comfort zone and your response may have been no God I don’t have the time for that today.  What type of blessing might you have missed out on?  Maybe the ability to bless someone else, maybe a financial blessing for being in the right place at the right time, maybe even the ability to share your faith with a lost soul.

You never know what God has planned, but if you always say no and stay home, then you will never find out.  Let me say that again.

You never know what God has planned, but if you always say no and stay home, then you will never find out.

Guys I know sometimes my messages may be difficult, they may point out a sore spot, they might even convict you, but please understand that as you are feeling these emotions, I am walking through the emotions with you.  99% of the time I am preaching to myself and by exposing my concerns I am helping God open my heart to what I need to do to overcome and draw closer to Him.

Let’s close in prayer.  Dear Heavenly Father I want to thank you for challenging me with this sermon.  I know that I am a sinner and have fallen short of the glory of God, but I also know that you sent Your Son Jesus to die on a cross for me and that through Him I can have eternal life.  Lord, keep me close to You as I continue to learn how to follow in Your footsteps.  If I stumble, please be there to help me back up.  In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

Thank you for joining us today with Faith Matters.  I pray that this word will challenge you to go deeper and don’t settle with just getting by.  God has bigger plans for us then we can even imagine.  Keep seeking Him and keep reading that Bible.  If you would like to reach out to me you can do so on Twitter @KNGMusic and on our website http://www.KNGMusicMinistry.com  Have a blessed day everyone!

 

 

 

 

 

 

Jesus Will Walk Through With You – Poem

Why do I write?

Am I really stuck in this fight?

Trying to shine God’s light

On a world stuck in blight

Lord help me be strong

People say I am wrong

I just want to belong

Teach me not to be headstrong

Abide in the vine

Send me a sign

Send shivers down my spine

Show me the bottom line

I need to know where to start

Shape my heart

Let it bleed love off the chart

Show me my part

Tomorrow I start over

Searching for the lost like a 4 leaf clover

Do I have any luck leftover?

Show me a rainbow to crossover

Guided by your design

Teach me to intertwine

Your Holy Spirit blowing up like a land mine

Explosions of Your glory divine

I want to walk by your side

Step by step keeping in stride

Your words becoming amplified

Your voice dignified

The great I AM has declared

You no longer have to be scared

Jesus was marred

But rose out of the tomb & shared

The word of God is true

Stop looking so blue

Receive the eternal view

Jesus will walk you through.

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The Truth Hurts – Sermon Notes

Don’t Judge Me

Welcome back to another session of Faith Matters. This week has been a roller coaster, one of my good friends lost his job and it broke my heart. I don’t know the entire circumstances surrounding it but if you would please pray for my brother Jimmy as he leans on Jesus to provide a new path. I personally feel it is just another test of faith that he has to go through, but being on the outside looking in, it is always easier than going through that storm.

Let’s go ahead and open up with prayer. Heavenly Father I thank you today for yet again another opportunity to speak truth into a world that despises it. Lord give me the words today to pierce the hearts of those listening, let the words spoken ring out loud with truth, let the words come out in such a way that they know it is You speaking Lord. I pray for those who are struggling and battling in their walk with you, but please give them strength Lord to press on until the day you come, in Jesus name, Amen.

Judging, what does that word mean to you?

Being a Christian I hear this word frequently by non-Christians telling me not to judge other people and by Christians telling me not to judge. Now, if I am not judging yet you are telling me I am being judgmental, then in essence aren’t you the real person that is judging?

Let’s go ahead and define what judging means:

form an opinion or conclusion about.

“scientists were judged according to competence”
synonyms:
form the opinion, conclude, decide; More

consider, believe, think, deem, view;

deduce, gather, infer, gauge, estimate, guess, surmise, conjecture;

regard as, look on as, take to be, rate as, class as;

informalreckon, figure

“we judged that it was too late to proceed”
decide (a case) in court.

“other cases were judged by tribunal”

synonyms:
try, hear; More

adjudicate, decide, give a ruling on, give a verdict on

“the case was judged by a tribunal”
give a verdict on (someone) in court.

“she was judged innocent of murder”

synonyms:
adjudge, pronounce, decree, rule, find

“she was judged innocent of murder”
Who is the last person you judged? Ha ha ha, don’t pretend like you have never judged someone because I feel like it is human nature to judge others and we do it without even thinking about it. Now stop and think again, who is the last person you judged? Have you ever gone back to them and asked for forgiveness for those judgmental thoughts? I know right now your jaw probably just hit the floor, but being honest with our own hearts and then humbling ourselves before others is the right thing to do.

I can’t begin to count the number of times that someone has told me not to judge others. Well, if your feelings get hurt easily it might be time to turn off this podcast. If you are afraid of hearing the truth then it might be time to turn off this podcast. If you want to remain in the dark and pretend like everything you are doing is okay to because you can ask God for forgiveness tomorrow then you might want to turn off this podcast.

Proverbs 15:22 Without counsel plans fail, but with many advisers they succeed.

It is time to get real and stop beating around the bush. I share many things on Twitter and so many of my posts are from personal interactions with peers, coworkers, friends, family, loved ones, my past, there is no limit to what God asks me to share. People will come and attack me about something I say and tell me yet again as a Christian you shouldn’t judge others. Did you know that there is a verse in the Bible that says as a Christian you should give council to your fellow brother and sisters in the Church?

Dealing With Sin in the Church Mathew 18:15-20

15 ”If your brother or sister sins, go and point out their fault, just between the two of you. If they listen to you, you have won them over. 16 But if they will not listen, take one or two others along, so that ‘every matter may be established by the testimony of two or three witnesses.’ 17 If they still refuse to listen, tell it to the church; and if they refuse to listen even to the church, treat them as you would a pagan or a tax collector.

18 ”Truly I tell you, whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven.

19 ”Again, truly I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything they ask for, it will be done for them by my Father in heaven. 20 For where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them.”

Now with that being said, the things that I say if you feel like they are being judgmental then maybe it is time for you to examine your own heart and walk with God. I am not labeling a name on my posts, I am merely pointing out stumbling blocks because we all have them yet so many of us can’t see them. We choose to ignore the sin and give ourselves pardons.

Proverbs 16:2 All a person’s ways seem pure to them, but motives are weighed by the Lord.

Now let me get back on my preaching block. If we remain silent about the evil that is in this world then the evil will continue to spread and take over the world. We are called to be the light and salt in this world, if you can’t handle that charge that word of God has called upon your life then it might be time to examine your heart.

Mark 16:15-20

15 He said to them, “Go into all the world and preach the gospel to all creation. 16 Whoever believes and is baptized will be saved, but whoever does not believe will be condemned. 17 And these signs will accompany those who believe: In my name they will drive out demons; they will speak in new tongues; 18 they will pick up snakes with their hands; and when they drink deadly poison, it will not hurt them at all; they will place their hands on sick people, and they will get well.”

19 After the Lord Jesus had spoken to them, he was taken up into heaven and he sat at the right hand of God. 20 Then the disciples went out and preached everywhere, and the Lord worked with them and confirmed his word by the signs that accompanied it.

God has called me, I don’t know why He chose me, but He did and He has given me an anguish to reach people. God keeps putting it on my mind to constantly share the things I see and hear because they are not becoming of a Christian. If you feel that is judging then yet again might be time to switch off this podcast. This message isn’t for the faint of heart, but instead for the Christ followers who are ready to get down to business.

I can no longer remain silent about the things I see. We must step up to the plate and point out what is wicked. Whether there is something that needs to be pointed out in my life or in the life of my fellow brothers and sisters in the Church we must hold each other accountable. If you can’t do it then involve your Pastor and seek the council of the elders of your Church.

Church, the time is short, we are living in the last days. Knowledge has continued to increase, the things of this world have continued to go from good to evil. All of the things that we have been raised as evil society wants to sell them to us as okay and acceptable. The word of God hasn’t changed and we need to remain rooted in what God says and stop listening to T.V., Commercials, Peer Pressure, and everything else of this world that keeps getting us off track.

Wake Up People

Some will hear all of this and begin to judge me like who is this guy thinking he is all perfect, but let me be the first to say that I am a sinner and have fallen short of the glory of God just like anyone else. I have failed and I have had to admit it to myself, my wife, my family. We must be humble and willing to admit when we stumble. Just because I have stumbled does not mean that God hasn’t put a fire in my heart to preach about it. Everyone needs to hear this message and that is the bottom line truth. We have become too comfortable and the time to wake up is today.

Change your lifestyle, do whatever YOU personally need to do to get back in a right relationship with Jesus. Stop waiting, if you think there is just a small thing that needs to be addressed then address it and stop putting it off. We all have different situations in our lives that need to be addressed, but my call to you is don’t wait. Do it today. Soon it will be too late and you will be begging for more time.

Heavenly Father I thank you for putting this burden on my heart. This message has taken me several weeks to write, but now I finally see why. Today you have put the rest of Your message into my heart so that I can speak it out. Lord I pray for anyone that is lukewarm, I pray that you will start a fire in them today! We need warriors who are not ashamed of the gospel of Jesus Christ. Lord use me to keep reaching more people, in the name of Jesus I pray, Amen.

Wow, thank you for hanging in there and listening to my passion. We are not doing enough and seeing how this world is turning out it shows. Please join me in spreading the Gospel and the truth around this world. We need to be honest and truthful and stop worrying about whose feelings might get hurt. If you would like to reach out to me, you can do so on Twitter @KNGMusic or on our website http://www.KNGMusicMinistry.com Thank you for listening and God Bless.

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Let’s Be Honest

How many times have you begged God to show you the whole picture?  I have to be completely honest and upfront with you; if I knew how much work God was going to be putting on my plate I would have been the first to turn and run the other way.  The infinite wisdom of God to even know that He shouldn’t show me all of the tasks that He needed me to do all at once because I would have been overwhelmed.  People talk all the time about being on the narrow path.  This is so true, God is leading my footsteps.  Each time I try to run ahead or step off the path, I get His gentle reminders that put me back in place.  If God has placed something on your heart today, don’t turn and run but instead continue to walk in the light.  God only gives us what we can handle and I can testify to that over and over again.  Day after day, God continues to amaze me with how He works.  Let me be the first to tell you that we serve a mighty God who is worthy of our praise.  I get up excited every morning, wondering what God is going to do next in my life.  I pray that you also find your joy just like I have.  Once you grab a hold of it, you will not want to let go. Don’t let God be that fish story of the One that got away.

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The Burning Fire Within

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If I say something and it makes a person feel guilty, it is not me trying to convict them but the Holy Spirit. God has changed my life, and I can no longer deny how awesome He is. Almost daily, I am seeing things happening in my life that only He could produce. I still have my struggles, but I always come through them because I know God is just testing my Faith. Imagine looking at the world without fear because you really trust in God to provide for you. What would that look like if you had Faith like that? I am not questioning the Faith of others, but I invite them to question their own Faith. It requires a heartfelt relationship with Jesus to opens one’s eyes, their heart, and their mind. A person can never understand where I am at until they have been there themselves.

If I can be honest, I will walk the line and say there have only been a few Christian people that I have met that stand out as having the Holy Spirit. There is something different about these people but they actually get it. There is one person in particular that I always admired; I wanted to have Faith like her, and be able to pray like her. I could tell that God was always with her. I can finally say that after years and years of being a Christian, I finally get it. Yes, I will admit it that I was a Christian a.k.a. churchgoer that thought all I had to do was go to church, listen to the Pastor, and then be a good person which would lead me to Heaven. I have learned that there is another level, not a cult or anything weird, but a personal relationship with God that is more rewarding. For the past two years, God has been working in my life, pruning branches, testing my Faith with fire. He allowed me to hit rock bottom yet I was at peace with my life. I came to the understanding that in order for me to receive blessings from God, I had to eliminate the things of this world. I started cutting out the things I collected, the music I listened to, the friends I hung out with. Not to say that they were that bad, but if God was to return in this instance, would you give your life for the friend standing next to you? If your answer is no, then they definitely aren’t a good enough friend.

I find myself daily praying to God for the things in my life. Yet, I don’t just pray; I also lift my voice in praise. Even today, with all the negative things that are happening with my wife’s job, I am praising His name because I know He is going to open new doors. I know that this sounds completely strange to praise God when my wife is losing her job, but you can’t understand until your own Faith exceeds your natural vision. It is not what you see and know but what is to come. God continues to blow my mind, and I love every moment. I can’t express it enough. I am sure my friends on Facebook are probably tired of hearing about God (yes most of them Christians), but when it comes down to it, how many of them have the fire burning within? Like I said before, not my place to judge, but if my talking about God and my walk offends someone, then maybe they need to take a step back and think about their walk with God. My goal has changed from becoming some successful guy with a new car and big house to a man that wants to change lives that are broken and lost into those restored and found in Christ. I am standing on my Faith when I tell you that God will one day allow me to reach thousands upon thousands of people and share my story so that all may know His glory and grace.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

God’s Purpose for You

Each person goes through life trying to understand what to live for. God has opened new doors and continues to do so. I know not everyone believes in God on my friends list but if your life is just to get up to go to work, come home to nothing, and go hang out with friends, wouldn’t you want to have more? There is a purpose for each person no matter your age or your past. Once you find God in your life, the world starts to look differently. Once God reveals your purpose, you finally realize the big picture He has been painting the whole time. God can’t give you the easy street because we won’t appreciate His blessings; we are molded into perfection by trials. If you asked me if I would ever be a preacher or a pastor, I would have told you no way. I don’t have enough knowledge or understanding of the Bible. The more I pushed away from it, the more that God has been showing me the wisdom He has placed in my heart. I am far from perfect but a vessel that God has chosen to reach those that are lost. I am truly blessed to be making videos & talking to people daily about God and what He has done for me. My Faith and my walk have been rising to new heights. God has been constantly using other people to speak blessings over my family. You don’t really have a walk with Christ until you are ready to listen to His will and be obedient. I am ready Lord; continue to use me for your purpose so that all may know you are the one true God that is alive today.

Each Precious Child Created Deserves A Chance

Just watched the movie “October Baby”, in tears, each child has a purpose regardless of how they are brought into this Earth. This movie brought me back to those moments in the NICU, each precious moment spent with my babies. You never know if God has a different plan for their lives. It is easy to be on the outside trying to tell someone what decisions they should make for their lives and the lives of the new babies. Take off the sunglasses and look into the emotional side of being a parent, each second in the beginning of their life, watching them eat, watching them breathe, teaching them to walk, teaching them to talk…Life is full of situations that nobody wants to go through, but yet we are pulled into them. Love on all people big or small because they are a gift from God.

-Nick