My Cry To You – Poem

I am counting every blessing

Especially while I am stressing

God has provided

Even while I was undecided

My world was falling

On Jesus I was calling

Save me Father from all this struggle

Too many things I am trying to juggle

My strength is failing

I turn to You for the unveiling

Of Your promises

Just like doubting Thomas

My faith longs to see Your nail scarred hands

My fears continue to add up like grains of sand

Yet I should cast my fears on You

Because You care for me & that is true

My thoughts fill my mind

They cause me to be blind

Father touch my head

Make it clear instead

Open my life to all that is true

Continue to pull me through

My eyes are full of tears

My pain no one shares

For only I can bear

This struggle has no compare

Others offer help

But all I can do is whelp

My words I do share

So others can see my prayers

I offer up all I have to You my King

Remove this fear & sting

Put up a shield of protection

Remove my sins like an injection

Cure me from all the pain

Set me free from every chain

I call upon Your name

Cleanse me from all blame

God I need You

You are the glue

The substance that holds me together

That calms the weather

Your words bound together by leather

Your voice soft like a feather

Let this Bible teach me

May it bring me to my knees

Teach me to wholly trust

Teach me to always discuss

Your words for all to hear

That soon You draw near❗️

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Hear My Cry Oh Lord – Poem

So now I sit and wait

Wondering if it is too late

Waiting for answers to my questions

Everyone giving me suggestions

Oh what a journey this has been

Asking God when when when

When will this be over

When will Your healing spillover

Day and night we pray

That she will reach her next birthday

Lord we need more time

We know You are working overtime

All of our needs we bring before You

We know there is still much to do

We call upon Your name

The name of Jesus we claim

We cry out with our souls

Please make Kristeen whole

Each day brings new circumstances

Yet You have provided for all of our finances

God you amaze

Our hearts set ablaze

We believe You raised

Jesus Christ as everyone gave praise

Do it again Lord

We pray in one accord

We call upon Thee

To set Kristeen free

Bind up that cancer

You are the only answer

May all the people see

In Jesus name cancer does flee

We place our faith in You

Please make Kristeen brand new

I have entered my cry

Now I wait for Your reply…

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We Didn’t Plan This – Poem

How can you understand

Cancer was never planned

How did this happen

Where is your compassion

People complaining about nothing

Always talking about something

Yet this pain is not leaving

Here I am grieving

The world constantly deceiving

Yet the sheep are still unbelieving

How can I move forward

The questions sound like a broken recorder

How is she doing

Questions sound like they are interviewing

We are waiting on a miracle

Something that is biblical

Not searching for “a” healer

Yet constantly checking for a fever

Looking for “The Healer”

To bind up the cancer like a concealer

Not just hide it

But transform it

Remove the cells that are attacking

While the doctors are tracking

So they can see

That God can do anything

Meanwhile I get inspired

Even when I am tired

God keeps speaking to my mind

Wanting me to reach out to the blind

I am just a man looking to share God’s plan

I reached out to this particular man

Where is the man that wanted to be

More than what the world said he could achieve

A man chasing after God

Instead of trying to avoid the rod

Common man don’t give me this or that

It is time to get back on track

What more are you waiting for

God is standing, knocking, on your front door❗️🚪

I can’t save you

But I can remind you

Jesus died to save you

He won’t run from you

No matter how long it takes

He waits patiently even when we try to be fake

Our feelings may be hurt

Put back on your shirt

Nobody wants to see that

It is time to fall flat

On our faces

And get back in God’s good graces. 🙏

I praise God for my pain

Because He allows me to see through the rain

It is just a storm

The prayers continue to transform

All my pain into a testimony

No I am not trying to be phony

My story is not over

It is hard to find like a 4 leaf clover

Buried among many chapters

I am praying for the rapture

Jesus I don’t know how much more I can take

Take a hold of my soul and shake

Cause me to remain strong

Continue to show me where I belong

Your power is stronger

And keeps me fighting longer

Hold me up

Fill my cup

Cause me to overflow

Pour out so others may grow

Closer to You Lord

It is You alone that I adore❗️
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Do You Remember When…


Do you remember the first time you received bad news? Last week my wife was in the hospital with what everyone thought was pneumonia. The doctor did a bronchoscopy and didn’t find any tumors so we thought we were in the clear. The biopsy takes a couple of days to come back. I was the first one to get the phone call and the doctor said, “it is cancer.” I was immediately in shock, I didn’t know how to respond, well how could I other then scream internally and question God why why why?

Kristeen’s mom died from lung cancer that metastasized to her brain about 3.5 years ago, but her mom smoked and was much older. I couldn’t comprehend how this could be happening to such a young woman. My wife has been such a giving person of herself and her time to so many people. I immediately thought God I am not ready to give my wife to you, I need her here, my kids need her here.

Yesterday we met with the oncologist and he gave us what the treatment options are. Of course I wasn’t thrilled with our options or the fact that this cancer is not cureable according to modern day medicine, but I still hold on to the fact that I serve a miracle working God and just because the doctors say there is no way doesn’t mean that God can’t do it. My dad was told he would never walk again and he has been walking for many years still.

The prognosis was very scary, I won’t lie about that, but I had to ask what the doctors thought about how much more time I would have with my wife. Some of you may know and understand that Kristeen is at stage 4 and the cancer has spread from her lungs, to her bones, and even to her brain. I try not to focus on the time we have left, but instead leave time in God’s hand while I take in every moment I have left with my bride. I love my wife and wouldn’t trade her for anything in the world.

I will leave everyone with this, don’t take anything for granted and be thankful for everything that God has blessed you with because in an instant everything can change.
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Hope Through Suffering – Sermon Notes

Thank you for joining us again at Faith Matters.  We are happy that you are here today to listen in to what God has placed on my heart.  For those of you that caught the last message, my leg is healing up nicely praise God!  I keep looking up at that tree and each time think of how it could have ended much differently, but God’s protection prevailed.  Today I don’t have a lot of back drop to share with how my week has been, but what I am going to share today is straight from my heart, please do not judge or hold any ill will against me, I think it is a must for me to share the struggles that I have been going through for the last 100 days.

Let’s open up with prayer.  Dear Lord, I pray that what I am about to discuss hits home with those who need this message.  Your people are battling some of things that I am going to cover on a daily basis.  Lord, help each of us to learn how to become more patient, slow to speak, slow to anger.  Without You Lord we can’t do it, but with You ALL things are possible.  God I thank you for pricking my heart and nudging me to share my story.  I pray that it helps others who are struggling.  Lord continue to use me, keep me humble, and let my words bring forth truth and give justice to the word of God.  In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

I wanted to share today the definition of broken:

  1. having been fractured or damaged and no longer in one piece or in working order.
  2. (of a person) having given up all hope; despairing. (defeated, beaten, subdued)

Broken can mean a lot of different things to different people.  What I want to talk about today is not an easy subject for me.  For the past 100+ days my wife has been battling with a headache that will not leave.  She has been seeing what they call “starbursts” in her vision.  She has been very weak, her skin has been sensitive just to a regular touch, and her feet have begun to hurt such that she can’t stand in place without have to lift one foot to give the other foot relief.  Instantly at this point you might say, “well, have you taken her to the doctor?”  Doctor visit has been her new middle name.  I wish we could buy stock in the doctor office because we have been there so many times this year.

What should have just been a possible sinus infection turned into so much more.  We went to our primary doctor to try and figure out what was going on.  The normal medicine didn’t seem to kick what we thought was a cold or maybe a sinus headache.  The pain in her head just kept going on and on.  The doctor began to order up the many different blood tests, she did a x-ray of her lower back where there was pain.  Lower back came back with some deterioration, but nothing out of the norm for a woman of her age.  All the blood test came back negative.  The doctor then ordered up a MRI and sent us to a neurologist.

The neurologist reviewed the MRI and compared it to the previous MRI and said that he couldn’t see anything wrong.  For most people this would be exciting, but for my wife it was nerve racking because the doctors still couldn’t explain her pain.  The neurologist advised to do some physical therapy on the neck at least once a week.  The physical therapy hasn’t really helped at all and the pain still continued.  I mentioned to her, “let’s get your eyes checked and see if the prescription needs to be updated.”  She scheduled that to be done and got her new pair of glasses, but that hasn’t helped the headache.  It is almost like no matter what we do, nothing is helping.  Have you ever been at that point?

As I am describing all of this to you, my wife has posted a few blogs about what she is facing.  Many people have offered prayers and that has been wonderful to see.  Some people expect that their prayer should heal my wife and the reality is that only God can heal her.  Don’t take this the wrong way, but if it is God’s will for her to suffer in this season then it won’t matter who prayers for her.  I say that with a grain of salt.  I don’t want my wife to suffer any moment longer and I have tried whatever I can, but to no avail at this point.  I told my wife, “what if God needs you to suffer right now so that you can reach and help others who are suffering?  So that you can share your story and bring them hope?”

2 Corinthians 12:1-10 Paul’s Visions and His Thorn

12 I must go on boasting. Though there is nothing to be gained by it, I will go on to visions and revelations of the Lord. 2 I know a man in Christ who fourteen years ago was caught up to the third heaven—whether in the body or out of the body I do not know, God knows. 3 And I know that this man was caught up into paradise—whether in the body or out of the body I do not know, God knows— 4 and he heard things that cannot be told, which man may not utter. 5 On behalf of this man I will boast, but on my own behalf I will not boast, except of my weaknesses— 6 though if I should wish to boast, I would not be a fool, for I would be speaking the truth; but I refrain from it, so that no one may think more of me than he sees in me or hears from me. 7 So to keep me from becoming conceited because of the surpassing greatness of the revelations,[a] a thorn was given me in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to harass me, to keep me from becoming conceited. 8 Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this, that it should leave me. 9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

If Paul was allowed to suffer then how can we expect that God wouldn’t allow anyone of us to suffer also?  You see in pain our emotions become weak, but in that same weakness, God can show His strength.  Let me say that one more time.  You see in pain our emotions become weak, but in that same weakness, God can show His strength.

I don’t wish any pain upon anyone, but at least we should know that God is with us.  God will not give us more than we can handle.

1 Corinthians 10:13 No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.

Now this particular verse refers to temptation, but if we are weak, in pain, hurting, does our flesh not want to give up and fall to that temptation?  It is only in Christ that we can have the strength to not adhere to our flesh, but instead overcome the struggles.
Through all of this my wife has been a warrior.  She has not given up, she has battled and fought hard, but as this condition has set in, it has taken it’s toll on her.  The doctors have most recently come back and said that she has fibromyalgia.  For most of you, you probably are wondering what is that?  Don’t worry, I had to look up exactly what it was also.  As stated by the Mayo Clinic,

“Fibromyalgia is a disorder characterized by widespread musculoskeletal pain accompanied by fatigue, sleep, memory and mood issues. Researchers believe that fibromyalgia amplifies painful sensations by affecting the way your brain processes pain signals.

Symptoms sometimes begin after a physical trauma, surgery, infection or significant psychological stress. In other cases, symptoms gradually accumulate over time with no single triggering event.

Women are much more likely to develop fibromyalgia than are men. Many people who have fibromyalgia also have tension headaches, temporomandibular joint (TMJ) disorders, irritable bowel syndrome, anxiety and depression.

While there is no cure for fibromyalgia, a variety of medications can help control symptoms. Exercise, relaxation and stress-reduction measures also may help.”

Even with that last statement being said, “there is no cure for fibromyalgia”, I serve a powerful God.  I know that if and when God wants to heal her from this He can do it.  I will continue to seek Him and pray for my wife.  This battle is just another chapter of the book the Lord is writing in my wife’s life.  I pray that God uses her testimony for help many others see that God is good and that God can still be found in the midst of this storm.

Now that I have tried to explain to the best of my ability what is going on with her life, I want to turn this story slightly.  Many times we hear about a story from the perspective of the person that is suffering from a disease, sickness, or illness, but we don’t always hear from their spouse.  This is not about me, look at what I am doing, or trying to get any glory, but instead open a door to a situation that many never see or hear about it.

When my wife tells me she is in pain, I am a guy and my built in instinct wants to fix her.  Guess what, I can’t!  I have tried and tried and tried some more, but I have still failed in trying to help heal my wife.  It hurts my heart to know that she is struggling.  Have you ever seen a wounded dove and another dove stays behind to help her?  That is me, I am here trying to help my wounded spouse recover, overcome, and get through the day to day tasks.  Each day it is becoming harder and harder to see my wife suffer.  I thought this was only a temporary headache; the longer it has gone on, the more concerned I have become.

Many times I have ask God why her?  My wife has done a 180 degree turn since I met her, she got saved, found a whole new meaning to life in Christ, started singing, released an album, serves in a small group, volunteers at numerous events, worked in nursery, serves in our youth group, Lord why her?  You see, this is the struggle that you never hear or see.  The spouse who wants to help, but the circumstances are much bigger than me.  Only God can do this, I can only pray and seek His face.

When my wife is sleeping in bed, I pray for her, I look at her and wish there was something more that I could do.  Many times she has thought I didn’t care about her symptoms, but really I couldn’t let her see me cry and breakdown.  If I am not strong for her then I feel like I am failing her.  I struggle with the fact that I am helpless.  In any other situation I could protect her, but from this illness, I can only watch from the sidelines.  Sure I do what I can around the house like cooking, cleaning, and laundry because she hasn’t had the energy, but is that really enough?  The next thing we wanted to do was adopt a child, we are currently at the final stages, and yet I am here thinking can we really handle another kid in this household?  Will God give me the strength to care for another?  I have plenty of love to give, but will I have the strength to carry my family plus another?  So many questions swirling around in my head, yet I know that God will carry me through.  I continue to pray and ask God for His direction.  I don’t want to step off His path, the plans that He has, but it can be so difficult.  This verse helps me get through:

Psalm 18:2 The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer, my God, my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.
You see when things get rough, when it looks like there is no way out, my option is to turn to God, to turn to Him in prayer.  Just ask the Lord to help.  The mind is a crazy thing, it can wander, it will tell you that you are not good enough, it will tell you that you can’t do this, it will tell you to give up, it will tell you to turn and run, but my God is not that way.  God brings me peace about this; God is the only thing that is keeping the joy in my life. I am looking at it from a whole different perspective and looking at Lord there has to be a reason and a purpose for this. Lord, there has to be somebody who has to hear her testimony, how she has battled this pain, how she has overcome it, how she has continued to look to You to get through.

This has nothing to do with me.  I am merely her support, I am merely here to help her when she gets down, I am merely here point her back to God when she thinks she can’t do it anymore.  But I am still just a human, I am still just a man and sometimes I can let doubt creep into my own life.  And I have to turn back and say alright Lord I need you to right my path, I need You to hold me up, I need you to give me everything that I need to get through today.

For those of you out there struggling, with so many different diseases and syndromes, lots of different things out there, I am not going to try and name them all.  There are so many different ones that people are battling from.  There is ones that I can’t even pronounce.  I saw someone the other day talking about this disease that they have and trying to encourage my wife and that they have been overcoming.  I have never even heard of the disease.  It can be scary, there are many things out there that the enemy will try to use to bring us down and keep us down.  You got to get back in the word, you have to read the scriptures.  The scriptures will bring you peace, the scriptures will give you strength, the scriptures will cause you to rise up and continue to stand tall, continue to stand upon the rock of the Lord.

I am going to close us out with prayer.   Heavenly Father I thank you, thank you for this opportunity to speak and really speak from my heart.  To expose the pain, trials, and suffering that I am going through in my own life Lord.  This was such a difficult message to write.  I have so much of my own pain and emotion that I have not let out and I have just been bottling it in and if I keep bottling it in then eventually I am just going to explode like a volcano.  Lord I pray for all of those out there that are suffering.  Whatever they are suffering from, I pray for them.  I pray for those who are trying to help them deal and cope to get through that suffering because they also need our prayers Lord, they also need Your strength.  Lord please be with us, be with us every day Lord and help keep us strong and help guide us Lord.  In the name of Jesus I pray, amen.

I want to thank you for taking a moment to listen.  If you need to reach out to me you can do so on Twitter @KNGMusic or on our website http://www.KNGMusicMinistry.com  I hope that things that we are posting are encouraging you.  One of the biggest things that we are trying to do is be real.  It is so easy to look at a preacher or a pastor or someone on TV and see all the good moments, you never see the bad stuff and think of wow they have such a perfect life.  There is no such thing as a perfect life; there is always something that we are going through as people, as humans, even as a Christian there is always a battle, there is always a struggle.  If you read through the Bible you will see it, it is never an easy road, there is always something going on, there is always a lesson that had to be learned.  There is always something that someone had to overcome.  Whatever you are going through, you are not alone, don’t give up, and keep pressing forward.  You found this message for some reason, and I hope that encourages you.  I hope the things that we are doing is not just so you can like it, RT it, or share it with someone else.  I hope it is encouraging, I hope it causes you to seek a deeper relationship with the Lord.  That is the real goal, purpose, everything to point people to Jesus, to point them to the truth.  Teach them how to go back, look at the scriptures, read it, absorb it, and use it to help build them up.  Well, before I start preaching again, let me just close it out.  Thank you for joining, have a blessed day.

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Draw Me Back To Thee – Poem


If I was poor

Would you open your door

If I was on the floor

Would you help me more

If I had no clothes in my drawer

Would you take me to a store

How many times

Would you offer your dime

How many rhymes

Must I share before you will climb

It is lunch time

The food I have is sour like a lime

How much would it cost

For you to help save the lost

How much food have you tossed

Speaking hot air like exhaust

It is cold, I can see the frost

Yet all you talk about is that cross

How can I focus on such a thing

My stomach is still growling

Just a piece of bread will make me sing

Warm me like a hot spring

I am still waiting for you to bring

Me to this Man that you call King

You talk about Him day and night

What good is that, I am full of fright

You talk of Jesus being a bright light

But in my darkness I have lost sight

Please oh please just share the highlights

Let your good news be my flashlight

Lead me back to where I belong

I walked away and I know I was wrong

I want to find my new song

So I can sing His praises all the day long

Can I come along

When is He coming, I hope it won’t be long

My body is weak

My outlook is bleak

The people call me a freak

My joints make loud creaks

Why is Jesus so unique

Please teach me to seek

You said He died for my sin

Why would anyone die for this has been

You said that Jesus did win

Conquered death, did He have a twin

When did this all begin

How can Jesus live within

I want to have this new life you speak of

I want to receive His love

Please God bless me from above

Show me Your truelove

I am ready to shove

The old me aside and fall in love

With the one who made me

The one who saved me

Jesus I need Thee

To open my heart with Your key

Please set me free

And draw me back to Thee!

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Just One More – Sermon Notes

 

Thank you for joining us again for another session of Faith Matters.  We had the privilege of taking a family vacation and spending time with family.  Now it is back to reality and getting things accomplished.  Summer time means vacation time for many families.  Everyone needs a vacation; some time away from the job and time to relax with the ones you love.  Today I am going to talk about a very difficult topic and I pray that you will give me grace when listening to it.

Before we go any further let us open in prayer.  Heavenly Father I thank you for allowing my family the ability to travel and spend time with our relatives.  During this time you opened my eyes to a topic that is very sensitive for almost every person in this world.  Lord, I pray for the right words, I pray for your guidance, I pray that You will give me the perfect words to explain what you have placed on my heart to convict those who need it and that they will receive it well and not be upset with the messenger.  In the name of Jesus I pray, Amen.

Let’s start out with the definition of consume:

Eat, drink, or ingest (food or drink).

Synonyms: eat, devour, ingest, swallow, gobble up, wolf down, guzzle, feast on, snack on

So if you haven’t figured it out I am being bold and talking about one of the sins that I have to battle on a daily basis.  That sin has another name which you probably don’t hear very much which is called gluttony.

The definition of gluttony is:

Habitual greed or excess in eating.

Synonyms: greed, greediness, overeating,

By normal American standards most people would look at me and not think I am overweight, but I am.  The hardest thing to hear is your Doctor telling you that you are obese.  I looked at myself and said there is no way, but yet I haven’t been getting any smaller.  I try to do 3 + miles on my lunch breaks a couple of times a week, but that hasn’t really put a dent in it.  I have to start pushing myself harder to exercise more and push away from the table.

God has blessed me with the ability to cook good food and then I keep going back for that one more bite.  Did you know that saying “just one more” is the trap that gets us all to become stuck in our sin?  We tell ourselves that we will only do it “just one more time”, but then that turns into the next time and the next time.  It is only by the power of Jesus that we can break the cycle of sin and be able to have the strength to constantly say no more.

Proverbs 23:20-21 Be not among drunkards or among gluttonous eaters of meat, for the drunkard and the glutton will come to poverty, and slumber will clothe them with rags.

Will you ever walk into Church and hear the preacher talking about over eating?  Not likely, but I know for me it has become a sin.  I am not saying that overweight people are sinners, but I would say that we each have to examine our lives and ask if we are living them properly in all aspects of life to be glorifying God.  I will continue to pray and seek God’s wisdom as I continue my own personal battle to keep the weight off.  I know that it is possible for me to overcome and I have to stop indulging myself and start denying my flesh.

Another verse that keeps standing out to me is:

1 Corinthians 3:16-17 Do you not know that you are God’s temple and that God’s Spirit dwells in you? If anyone destroys God’s temple, God will destroy him. For God’s temple is holy, and you are that temple.

God has given me this body and if I truly believe that Jesus is alive in me and that my body is His temple then I need to start putting more action into how I am living my life.  I don’t know if you guys do this, but I give myself excuses or special reasons why I deserve some ice cream.  I really have to examine everything I do as I continue to draw closer to the Lord.  Some battles like this one it is up to me to press in and ask for God’s strength to help me in this spiritual battle and defeat my fleshly desires.

A similar example of consuming too much and not exercising as a Christian can be found in Church on Sunday mornings.  For many years I sat in service every Sunday morning consuming the word of God, but the thing that I was lacking was the exercising of my Faith.  Because I didn’t exercise my Faith my soul was getting satisfied and contempt while others around me were starving because no one was sharing the word of God with them.

As a Christian it is up to us to exercise that Faith, burn off the excess and let the Holy Spirit not stop with us but instead continue to flow from us to others.  For far too many years this was a stumbling block for me and I never realized it.  I was too busy enjoying what I was receiving that I didn’t stop to examine if I was doing enough exercising.

Today I make it a point to share and talk about Jesus as much as I can.  I don’t want people to be excited about me or my name, but instead to find their own personal relationship with Jesus.  Yet again I didn’t understand what it was to have a relationship with Jesus until I started to exercise my Faith.  Once you have a relationship then you will never go back.  You completely understand what the scriptures are talking about when they say you have to die to yourself daily and pick up your cross.  The more of this world that I have blocked out of my life, the more distractions that I have removed, the more desires of my flesh that I have been able to avoid, the closer my walk with God has become.

There is no magic formula, no specific way to find your relationship; we each have our own unique walk to find the Lord.  Please take some time out today to examine all aspects of your life and let the conviction of the Holy Spirit point out the flaws that your natural eyes keep overlooking.

Heavenly Father I thank you for pointing out the areas of my life that need attention.  I pray that others who listen to this find their own areas of conviction whether it is sin like mine or maybe just exercising their faith.  Lord please help us to be stronger and remove all fear so that we can spread the good news of the gospel.  Like train us up like soldiers and prepare us for battle for the things of this world are not just physical, but also spiritual.  Jesus in your name I pray, Amen.

Thank you for taking the time to listen.  I am sorry if my message rubbed you the wrong way, but this is what God placed on my heart and a battle that I have to address in my life.  I felt that there might be others out there that need to be encouraged and that with Jesus the “one more time” option will be removed.  Don’t be discouraged, keep pressing forward.  God has a plan for your life just like He does for me.  Let each of your battles become a testimony of how God is working in your life.

If you would like to reach out to me, you can do so on Twitter @KNGMusic or via our website http://www.KNGMusicMinistry.com  Thank you for pausing to listen, I pray the upcoming week will be a blessing for you.  God bless.
 

Love Him Anyway

Dad's have big shoes to fill

Don’t take your dad for granted, he did the best he could for you despite all of the struggles that you never knew about.  Being a father doesn’t come with an instruction manual; it only comes with the knowledge of the father you had.  For some of us, that is all we needed and for others of us that means we had nothing.  My dad was awesome yet like others I never realized it or gave him the credit he deserved.  Don’t wait until your dad is gone to honor him; take a moment RIGHT NOW if it is not already too late and tell your dad thanks for doing the best that he could.  I love my dad tremendously and no amount of words can ever replace what he has taught me.  Dads may not have the best record of always being there, but my challenge to you is to make a difference in the life of someone, anyone.  Don’t be the dad that never had time for his kids, his family, or those he loved.

What If He Is Gone Tomorrow?

I was one of those few kids who actually had great parents.  Nobody has perfect parents but they both love us and took great care of us as kids.  My dad is a prayer warrior who would always tell me to pray in my time of need.  He wanted to raise me right, teach me about God.  Not every parent has that drive to raise their children according to the will of God.  My dad has been battling to overcome life throughout his own life.  I am sure you are wanting to ask “what are you talking about?”  My dad grew up in the Bronx, in New York City.  One of those places that most young men never make it out of.  He was strong as a kid and wanted to live a happy life.  He has always fought hard for his family, family has always been #1 to him.  My dad didn’t have a lot of food or clothes as a kid so he took every effort to make sure he provided for his kids.  Amazing how we strive to do better for our children then what we had for ourselves.  I don’t know why but he has carried a burden for 30+ years, a disease, AVN, that has attacked his bones.  We know what caused this disease but to avoid controversy I won’t put the name here.

My dad has been dealing with chronic pain for 30+ years due to this condition. 

Having surgery after surgery yet still coming out with a smile.  The doctors told him he would never walk again, but he did.  He had more heart than the doctors gave him credit for.  But what if one day he was gone?  What would I do, where would I go, who would I turn to?  I have buried this worry in my heart for years, ever since the disease took a hold of him.  Surgery after surgery I didn’t know if he would make it out alive.  Blood transfusions, more antibiotics, more pain medicine, yet the grimace on his face told the entire story.  The pain that one man must endure to continue living…  I can only imagine that the pain my father has dealt with over the years would be equivalent to Jesus as He hung on the cross beaten for our sins.  I would cry out to God,

Why my dad? Take his pain away. Give it to me. 

I am sure that God heard my cry but knew that I couldn’t bare the pain that my father has. Now, my dad has even harder road ahead of him. I am sad to say that yet again we have come to that fork in the road.  Not just another surgery but a new disease that we all are having to deal with today – cancer.  I have prayed for my dad and my prayer has continued to be, “Lord Your will be done.”  I know my dad has outlasted anything the doctors said, overcome every trial, rose up again and has been able to walk.

Today, I lay it all down at the foot of the cross.

He went in for a bone scan today to see if the cancer has spread into his bones.  They already told him that the MRI came back and he has stage 4 cancer.  The light at the end of the tunnel continues to be there but so distant.  I am holding on by a thread.  My prayer is strength for my family, strength and comfort for my mom.  I pray that he makes it to just one more anniversary with his bride.  We don’t know why God let’s things happen to good people but I can tell you that

I still believe that all things work out for the glory of God.

I pray that all of his suffering was not in vain, that he touched the lives of those he came in contact with.  That he continues to smile until the day God brings him home.  You see, I keep asking myself, what if he is gone tomorrow?