If You Only Knew – Poem

If you only knew

What happened when I was through

I tried to give up

But for some reason God refilled my cup

I tried to run away

But God called me back and invited me to stay

How many times must I try to run

Every time my life comes undone

My pain is more than I can bear

Which is why I cry to Jesus because this world is not fair

Broken relationships almost did me in

Then I was reminded of how Jesus forgives our sin

But God you just don’t understand

How many times I have been burnt, I can’t count them on one hand

Lord I can’t do this anymore

I keep falling and hitting the floor

Why can’t you end this life of mine

You are in charge not Father Time

No matter what the score

I can’t come back anymore

This game is over, I am finished

I was strong like Popeye and his spinach

But then reality set in

And I finally gave in

How can I face tomorrow

When today already has me in sorrow

You don’t understand

I have always been banned

Turned away

Every person pushed, that came my way

But now You say it will all be okay?

How do You know, this pain won’t go away

I pray and pray and ask to be set free

But the shade continues to come like an oak tree

Caught up in darkness no matter how hard I fight

Jesus I think it is time to turn off this light

And say goodnight

Then I will be alright

Stuck in darkness with nothing to see

I don’t think You have the power to break me free

I should have been gone a long time ago

But You came and sat next to me like a bro

God my pain it causes such strain

Just like my newspaper caught in the rain

The words are beginning to smear

Please take away all my fear

I know I can’t do this alone

But thank God You are sitting upon the throne

Help me God to over come

Remove everything that has caused me to become numb

I pray dear God that today will change

I am tired of feeling so strange

My bride needs You more than me

Yet my own fear is all I can see

Lord we pray for continued healing

You know how hard I have been dealing

Trying to get past what satan has been stealing

Back on my knees I continue kneeling

Praying for something more

Praying you will open a new door

We need a breakthrough in her body and for my soul

Restore what satan has stole

God my heart is weak

I come before You, the outcome looks bleak

Please dear God give me more time

The time has come for me to end this rhyme

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Waiting For A Breakthrough – Poem

Who am I

A question we all ask but why

Looking for the meaning of life

Yet this life cuts like a knife

A wound deep beneath the skin

Almost like it was built-in

Why do I have this pain

Building up like a bad sprain

Everyone offers help to lift you up

But that is only a momentary pickup

So today who has reached out

Who has helped me with this doubt

I implore you to never give up

Stop trying to cover-up

All the pain that holds you down

All the pain that causes you to frown

All the pain that makes you feel let down

All the pain that makes you want to breakdown

There has to be more

Than what you can buy in the store

I want you to keep singing

Your voice always in my ear bringing

My spirit up

Even when I have a buildup

Of pain

All caught in my brain

But the easy answer

Is there is no cure for cancer

Who dealt me these cards

I have always been on guard

Trying to protect the ones I love

Keep them close to me like a glove

But no matter how hard I try

The end continues to draw nigh

I want to enjoy today

Please don’t push me away

I know you are scared

But that is why Jesus shared

His life on the cross

To remind satan that He was the boss

Today I plead with you

To let go of everything that is making you blue

It is time to restore all that is true

God’s word kicks evil like Kung Fu

I can’t pull you through

But if you have faith Jesus will come through

Can I ask you a question

Will you stop all the aggression

Will you begin with confession

This is just my suggestion

Faith removes the depression

And leaves a positive impression

We are made in the image of God

Except Adam & Eve allowed us to become flawed

Nonetheless by the grace of God

We can now applaud

For God has given us a way

So we will no longer betray

The Son of Man

This has been God’s plan

To sacrifice His only Son

He said “it is finished” & then it was done

God help me remain strong

All the day long

Even when life happens

Help me to continue laughing

I give my life to You

I am waiting for a breakthrough

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We Didn’t Plan This – Poem

How can you understand

Cancer was never planned

How did this happen

Where is your compassion

People complaining about nothing

Always talking about something

Yet this pain is not leaving

Here I am grieving

The world constantly deceiving

Yet the sheep are still unbelieving

How can I move forward

The questions sound like a broken recorder

How is she doing

Questions sound like they are interviewing

We are waiting on a miracle

Something that is biblical

Not searching for “a” healer

Yet constantly checking for a fever

Looking for “The Healer”

To bind up the cancer like a concealer

Not just hide it

But transform it

Remove the cells that are attacking

While the doctors are tracking

So they can see

That God can do anything

Meanwhile I get inspired

Even when I am tired

God keeps speaking to my mind

Wanting me to reach out to the blind

I am just a man looking to share God’s plan

I reached out to this particular man

Where is the man that wanted to be

More than what the world said he could achieve

A man chasing after God

Instead of trying to avoid the rod

Common man don’t give me this or that

It is time to get back on track

What more are you waiting for

God is standing, knocking, on your front door❗️🚪

I can’t save you

But I can remind you

Jesus died to save you

He won’t run from you

No matter how long it takes

He waits patiently even when we try to be fake

Our feelings may be hurt

Put back on your shirt

Nobody wants to see that

It is time to fall flat

On our faces

And get back in God’s good graces. 🙏

I praise God for my pain

Because He allows me to see through the rain

It is just a storm

The prayers continue to transform

All my pain into a testimony

No I am not trying to be phony

My story is not over

It is hard to find like a 4 leaf clover

Buried among many chapters

I am praying for the rapture

Jesus I don’t know how much more I can take

Take a hold of my soul and shake

Cause me to remain strong

Continue to show me where I belong

Your power is stronger

And keeps me fighting longer

Hold me up

Fill my cup

Cause me to overflow

Pour out so others may grow

Closer to You Lord

It is You alone that I adore❗️
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Now That Is Something I Can Applaud❗️ – Poem

Don’t be so raw that you’re hard

Words so sharp they cut like a chard

We need people that speak truth

Bring back that old phone booth

Super Man lost his cover

It’s time for us to rediscover

Jesus died for your heart

He took the shot like a fiery dart

Satan tried Him

God saved Him

Rose again like a boss

But you too busy shopping at Ross

Looking for a bargain

Meanwhile Jesus rose again

He wants to save you

Ring that up, that is true

Stop trying to blow money on worldly things

Salvation is better than a diamond ring

No matter how many times

I keep spitting the same rhyme

It falls on death ears

Too busy drinking them beers

Does the truth hurt

You to busy trying to flirt

Looking for love in all the wrong places

But even CSI can’t find any traces

Love is not found just anywhere

Love is it found at the fair

Love is not found in any pair

Jesus died to remove the despair

Jesus is love

He came from above

To take it all on the cross

To give you access to come across

There is only one way

Don’t let anyone lead you astray

Jesus is the only

Stop falling for the phony

The one true God

Now that is something I can applaud❗️

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Do You Remember When…


Do you remember the first time you received bad news? Last week my wife was in the hospital with what everyone thought was pneumonia. The doctor did a bronchoscopy and didn’t find any tumors so we thought we were in the clear. The biopsy takes a couple of days to come back. I was the first one to get the phone call and the doctor said, “it is cancer.” I was immediately in shock, I didn’t know how to respond, well how could I other then scream internally and question God why why why?

Kristeen’s mom died from lung cancer that metastasized to her brain about 3.5 years ago, but her mom smoked and was much older. I couldn’t comprehend how this could be happening to such a young woman. My wife has been such a giving person of herself and her time to so many people. I immediately thought God I am not ready to give my wife to you, I need her here, my kids need her here.

Yesterday we met with the oncologist and he gave us what the treatment options are. Of course I wasn’t thrilled with our options or the fact that this cancer is not cureable according to modern day medicine, but I still hold on to the fact that I serve a miracle working God and just because the doctors say there is no way doesn’t mean that God can’t do it. My dad was told he would never walk again and he has been walking for many years still.

The prognosis was very scary, I won’t lie about that, but I had to ask what the doctors thought about how much more time I would have with my wife. Some of you may know and understand that Kristeen is at stage 4 and the cancer has spread from her lungs, to her bones, and even to her brain. I try not to focus on the time we have left, but instead leave time in God’s hand while I take in every moment I have left with my bride. I love my wife and wouldn’t trade her for anything in the world.

I will leave everyone with this, don’t take anything for granted and be thankful for everything that God has blessed you with because in an instant everything can change.
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No More Tears Of Sorrow – Poem


Have you ever felt battered?

Have you ever felt tattered?

Have you ever felt scattered?

Like nothing really mattered?

Pushed to the edge

Forced to recite a pledge

Yet not understanding

How am I even still standing

How can I get out

Trying to scream and shout

No voice comes out

Feeling nothing but doubt

Flooding to capacity

Can you believe the audacity

Who can I tell

That I am living in hell

Burning with emotion

Like a raging ocean

But all you see is

Nothing but bubbles & fizz

There is more than you know

Can you see the plateau

Things continue to come up

Life is full of buildup

One thing after another

Have you told your brother

Keeping it all in

Is like trying to hide sin

It continues to boil

Until it smells spoiled

Rotten, stinking like day old fish

Whatever happened to my wish

The truth is the devil is a liar

He tries to make you walk the wire

High above the world with nothing below

To soften the blow

As he tries to repeatedly knock you down

Turning your smile into a frown

He knows how to push your buttons

Until all of a sudden

You fall off the wire

Into his well kept fire

He loved when you would admire

Yourself, & change your attire

Until it was all about you

No God No friends just little old you

Separated we will surely fail

No one there to post bail

But yet there was one

Everyone called Him the Son

A man who came into this world as a baby

Will you accept Him, well maybe

Why are you not sure

Didn’t you read the brochure

Jesus died for the lost

To pay the cost

That no one could

Because who else would

Give up their life for what

There is no other shortcut

There is only one way to Heaven

Even though false preachers make up 7

Do you know the truth

It is sweeter than a Baby Ruth

God’s plan to save all mankind

You just have to open your mind

Read the gospel and receive His word

Now you can never say you never heard

I try my best

To share this treasure chest

My hope is in the Lord

It is time to get onboard

Make the decision and let Him reign

Let Him remove all the pain

No more tears of sorrow

He holds tomorrow

If this wasn’t true

Then I would have blew

My brains out long ago

None of this is show

One day I sat on my bed

Wishing I was dead

I had the gun

Was ready for it to be done

But God did stop me

He opened my eyes to see

That suicide was just an excuse

That I shouldn’t choose

He had more for me to do

And today I know this is true

Nothing in life is easy

I pray my poem did not make you wheezy

Nothing more true than salvation

That is available for every tribe & nation

God I pray You continue to use me

Use me to share Thee

With You Lord we can overcome

All these feelings of being numb

Every day is a gift

Hold my hand so I never drift

Keep me in Your will

Until the day You come to fill

The prophecies have been told

Help me to remain bold
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Heaven Fall That We May Be Inspired❗️

You pretend like you don’t care

Throwing your hands in the air

Wishing you were never there

You chant why isn’t life fair?

Why do you question what God is doing?

You are the one walking around wooing

Every person you see consuming

Your eyes are full with assuming

Your heart heavy with dust

Years and years of lust

Piled upon from lack of trust

Full of emotion ready to combust

How much longer can you hide

These feelings deep inside

Swallow that pride

You are the reason Jesus cried

Not just one tear but Jesus wept

All along this sin crept

Into your heart

Why did you let it start?

Satan threw that first dart

He knew it would set you a part

From the blessings that Jesus has planned

You have seen them firsthand

Get rid of that contraband

How many times must He reprimand

Your story is not new

I have seen more than a few

Time & time Jesus has come through

You no longer have to make do

Wake up you dry bones

You are no longer stoned

Stop walking around here like clones

The Holy Spirit has set a new tone

Jesus I call upon your name

Not for my fame

Show them life is not a game

Holy Spirit spread your flame!

Set us on fire

This is my heart’s desire

We have taken this down to the wire

Heaven fall so that we may all be inspired!

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Who You Are – Sermon Notes

Hello and welcome back to Faith Matters.  Time continues to fly by, tomorrow is the big day that I get to pick up the CD’s for my wife’s new album.  This weekend she will be performing at the fair in Charleston so she has been in preparation mode all week.  God is good and if you haven’t felt that way lately please stop and ask yourself if you are doing everything within your power to give God your best.

Let’s go ahead and open up in prayer.  Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for this blessed day.  I am excited because I have been filled up with the Holy Spirit.  Lord let my words mean something to the hearts of those who are listening.  Lord let me be that light that draws them unto You.  In Your name I pray, Amen.

Who are you?  No no no, who are you really?  You see who we think we are isn’t always how we are living our life.  I met someone tonight, he came out to our youth group, he was quiet, just sat in the chair and watched everyone walking by.  He was early, the service hasn’t started yet, but my eyes were drawn to him.  Sure I knew this was his first time but more importantly I could tell that he felt uncomfortable and probably didn’t know anyone.

He looked over at me and decided to stand up and walk towards me.  We exchanged a couple of words, I asked him what school he went to.  He asked me how old I was and it made me laugh.  I told him if I looked young enough for him to ask me that then I am doing a good job.  I gave him my age and I am sure he was shocked.  I told him don’t worry the service will get started in about 7 more minutes.

The service for the youth kicked off with a bang like it always does, people were singing and worshipping The Lord.  I witnessed him get up from his chair and walk to the front and raise up his hands.  Let me tell you this, when God is moving there is NOTHING that can stand in His way.  Pastor Dan gave his sermon tonight and talked about our dreams and are we trying to live out our dreams or receive the dreams that God wants to do in and through us.  Pastor Dan asked if anyone in the audience didn’t know Jesus as their Lord and Savior.  This young man raised his hand along with three other teens and invited Jesus into his life.Top of Form

1 John 1:9  If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

I watched him yet again rise up from his seat and go to the front to lift his hands and singing praises to The Lord.  This melted my heart; this is what it is all about.  The person that has never heard about Jesus coming into a building we call Church and finding Jesus who changes his life from the inside.

Luke 15:3-7 So he told them this parable: “What man of you, having a hundred sheep, if he has lost one of them, does not leave the ninety-nine in the open country, and go after the one that is lost, until he finds it? And when he has found it, he lays it on his shoulders, rejoicing. And when he comes home, he calls together his friends and his neighbors, saying to them, ‘Rejoice with me, for I have found my sheep that was lost.’ Just so, I tell you, there will be more joy in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who need no repentance.

I say all of this to quite simple say that Jesus loves each and every one of us.  There is not one lost sheep that He wouldn’t stop what He is doing to go search for.  Jesus is searching for you regardless if you want to believe it or not.  Your heart is longing for the love of Christ but your mind keeps trying to push Jesus away.  The flesh doesn’t want to be under control, it wants to be wild and satisfy all of its desires.  Don’t let any sin keep you from the glory of God.

Let’s close out in prayer.  Lord I thank you for the ability to be a part of such a beautiful sight of sinning a lost person find his way back to you.  Lord let us never take the glory but instead always give it back to You.  For it is because of You that this young man came in tonight in search of something more.  Thank you for blessing us to reach out and be the light to the lost.  Continue to use us to reach many more, in Your name I pray, Amen.

I want to thank you for taking the time to listen today.  If you would like to reach out to me you can do so on Twitter @KNGMusic or via our website http://www.KNGMusicMinistry.com We would love to hear from you.  It is because of your constant feedback and love that helps keep us motivated and moving forward with our ministry.  Let not one soul be lost because we didn’t feel like it or we didn’t have time.  Have a blessed day!

The Servant Heart – Sermon Notes

Welcome back to Faith Matters…

I want to jump straight into prayer today because I am excited to see how God is going to move with this message.

Heavenly Father we come together in the name of Jesus.  We are people of flesh that are withering away by the moment, but we know that through You we can live eternally.  Lord, I pray for all of those out there that are in pain and have been suffering from ailments.  I know that when I am injured it hurts and that is just temporary, but there are people out there suffering day in and day out.  Jesus I pray that today You will reach out to them with Your love, give them Your peace, and remind them of what is to come.  In Your name I pray, Amen.

It has only been a short week yet so much has changed in our world today.  But let us not start with that which may bring concern but in better news we just received word that we will be able to close on our house this Thursday.  For those of you who are new, this house is a mountain that God dug up and moved for us.  You will have to go back and listen to my previous message entitled “Sometimes No Means Not Yet” to see how mighty and powerful our Lord is.  Another striking moment that happened just yesterday is an old friend on Twitter reached out to me and for the sake of keeping her name private I will call her Sally.  Sally was the first person that I help find their way to Jesus via Twitter.  God has been working wonders in her life and I give Him all the glory for what He has accomplished.  Now we have to look towards the future and what does God have in store for us?

What does it mean to be a servant?

1) a person who performs duties for others, especially a person employed in a house on domestic duties or as a personal attendant.
2) a person employed in the service of a government.
3) a devoted and helpful follower or supporter.
Today I just talked with my friend Zanele who lives thousands of miles away from me in South Africa.  Now stop and think about that for just a moment, Faith Matters found its way to South Africa for people there to listen?  Wow, now that is all God.  Zanele has a heart of gold, she has become the hands and feet of Christ where she lives.  Zanele is battling stage 1 Cancer but when she writes her messages you would never know.  How many of us can put aside our own lives to go out and serve others?

James 1:22 But be doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving yourselves.

I want to give you a firsthand account of what it means to be a servant to others from the one and only Facebook post done by her friend Ashley Jude:

This is my first and probably last post.  I needed to find a way to show the world my appreciation before it’s too late.  I don’t know how this Facebook thing works but I hope I don’t mess it up.  Last year December, I met this lovely young lady Zanele in the Hospital.  She came to visit me and I was so shocked because I had never met her before.  She was struggling to walk as she was unwell but nonetheless, she made the effort to come and see me.  We spent hours just talking and she showed me the love of Christ.  I’ve recently got back home after a series of failed battles as the Doctors told me that I’m in my final stages of my Pancreatic Cancer as it has spread so much all over my body.  I have had a good sixty four years in this world and it’s time to meet my Heavenly Father.  Zanele not only came to visit me often, she wrote me letters, brought me flowers, made me laugh, made me feel special, loved me unconditionally but mostly, made the last couple of months the happiest time of my life.  I wish there were words to tell you how you have changed my life.  You came in and called me Grandma Ashley, you became my first grandchild as I have none of my own.  We have shared so many things together but your kindness, love, selflessness, and compassion, were the best things you shared with me.  I know you recently lost your best friend and I’ll send him your love when I see him, but I want you to always smile like you always do for me.  You are a treasure and you have blessed my life.  I hope those around you appreciate you a bit more.  Thank you so much my dear child, until we meet again in the next life, I love you so much.

This was the only post that Ashley did as she passed away and went to be with The Lord just hours after she posted her message of gratitude to Zanele.

Life is short, it comes and goes faster than any of us could have imagined.  The biggest question to all of us as we listen to the compassion of one friend to another is what is the next step for your life with God?  If God was to take you today, are you ready?  I have come across people today that don’t know if they will go to Heaven.  Do you know that you know that you know that will The Lord calls you home, you will be coming home to His loving arms?

John 3:16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.

For me personally I feel that it goes deeper than just memorizing a Bible verse.  When it comes to Jesus it is a heart thing.  We have to understand that Jesus came to this world and sacrificed His own life to save all of us.  Are you willing to die for the sins of others?  That is an excessive request to most of us.

Ashley understood that the Cancer had spread and that her life was being cut short, but she also knew that her time with Jesus was coming soon.  You may be battling pain right now, you may be battling doubts right now, you may be feeling all alone, but rest assured that you are not alone.  Jesus didn’t say go out and make everything right and come back to me tomorrow, NO, He said the way to the Father is through me.  Jesus is the key that you have been searching to get into Heaven if we would just have faith.

Zanele herself is still battling Cancer and we thank God for each new day.  For most of us we expect many more years of life, but to be honest, God can take anyone one of us today, tomorrow, or even next week.  Let us not be taken by surprise, but be prayed up for whenever we are called home.

Lord I thank you for allowing me to share a story of what it means to be a servant to others through our own actions with those listening today.  I pray that I can also learn from Zanele and be a servant unto You Lord.  It doesn’t have to be big things, but even in the little things like sharing a smile, writing a letter, telling someone that they are loved.  Lord, I thank you for giving us such a great example of Your love and I pray that we all see how we can do just a little more.  In Your name I pray, Amen.

I want to thank you for listening today to Faith Matters.  If you would like to reach out to me you can do so on Twitter @KNGMusic or via our website http://www.KNGMusicMinistry.com Remember, don’t get too concerned with today until you know that your future is secure in The Lord.  Have a fantastic day.