If You Only Knew – Poem

If you only knew

What happened when I was through

I tried to give up

But for some reason God refilled my cup

I tried to run away

But God called me back and invited me to stay

How many times must I try to run

Every time my life comes undone

My pain is more than I can bear

Which is why I cry to Jesus because this world is not fair

Broken relationships almost did me in

Then I was reminded of how Jesus forgives our sin

But God you just don’t understand

How many times I have been burnt, I can’t count them on one hand

Lord I can’t do this anymore

I keep falling and hitting the floor

Why can’t you end this life of mine

You are in charge not Father Time

No matter what the score

I can’t come back anymore

This game is over, I am finished

I was strong like Popeye and his spinach

But then reality set in

And I finally gave in

How can I face tomorrow

When today already has me in sorrow

You don’t understand

I have always been banned

Turned away

Every person pushed, that came my way

But now You say it will all be okay?

How do You know, this pain won’t go away

I pray and pray and ask to be set free

But the shade continues to come like an oak tree

Caught up in darkness no matter how hard I fight

Jesus I think it is time to turn off this light

And say goodnight

Then I will be alright

Stuck in darkness with nothing to see

I don’t think You have the power to break me free

I should have been gone a long time ago

But You came and sat next to me like a bro

God my pain it causes such strain

Just like my newspaper caught in the rain

The words are beginning to smear

Please take away all my fear

I know I can’t do this alone

But thank God You are sitting upon the throne

Help me God to over come

Remove everything that has caused me to become numb

I pray dear God that today will change

I am tired of feeling so strange

My bride needs You more than me

Yet my own fear is all I can see

Lord we pray for continued healing

You know how hard I have been dealing

Trying to get past what satan has been stealing

Back on my knees I continue kneeling

Praying for something more

Praying you will open a new door

We need a breakthrough in her body and for my soul

Restore what satan has stole

God my heart is weak

I come before You, the outcome looks bleak

Please dear God give me more time

The time has come for me to end this rhyme


My Cry To You – Poem

I am counting every blessing

Especially while I am stressing

God has provided

Even while I was undecided

My world was falling

On Jesus I was calling

Save me Father from all this struggle

Too many things I am trying to juggle

My strength is failing

I turn to You for the unveiling

Of Your promises

Just like doubting Thomas

My faith longs to see Your nail scarred hands

My fears continue to add up like grains of sand

Yet I should cast my fears on You

Because You care for me & that is true

My thoughts fill my mind

They cause me to be blind

Father touch my head

Make it clear instead

Open my life to all that is true

Continue to pull me through

My eyes are full of tears

My pain no one shares

For only I can bear

This struggle has no compare

Others offer help

But all I can do is whelp

My words I do share

So others can see my prayers

I offer up all I have to You my King

Remove this fear & sting

Put up a shield of protection

Remove my sins like an injection

Cure me from all the pain

Set me free from every chain

I call upon Your name

Cleanse me from all blame

God I need You

You are the glue

The substance that holds me together

That calms the weather

Your words bound together by leather

Your voice soft like a feather

Let this Bible teach me

May it bring me to my knees

Teach me to wholly trust

Teach me to always discuss

Your words for all to hear

That soon You draw near❗️


Copyright 2018 KNG Music & Praise First Publishing

We Didn’t Plan This – Poem

How can you understand

Cancer was never planned

How did this happen

Where is your compassion

People complaining about nothing

Always talking about something

Yet this pain is not leaving

Here I am grieving

The world constantly deceiving

Yet the sheep are still unbelieving

How can I move forward

The questions sound like a broken recorder

How is she doing

Questions sound like they are interviewing

We are waiting on a miracle

Something that is biblical

Not searching for “a” healer

Yet constantly checking for a fever

Looking for “The Healer”

To bind up the cancer like a concealer

Not just hide it

But transform it

Remove the cells that are attacking

While the doctors are tracking

So they can see

That God can do anything

Meanwhile I get inspired

Even when I am tired

God keeps speaking to my mind

Wanting me to reach out to the blind

I am just a man looking to share God’s plan

I reached out to this particular man

Where is the man that wanted to be

More than what the world said he could achieve

A man chasing after God

Instead of trying to avoid the rod

Common man don’t give me this or that

It is time to get back on track

What more are you waiting for

God is standing, knocking, on your front door❗️🚪

I can’t save you

But I can remind you

Jesus died to save you

He won’t run from you

No matter how long it takes

He waits patiently even when we try to be fake

Our feelings may be hurt

Put back on your shirt

Nobody wants to see that

It is time to fall flat

On our faces

And get back in God’s good graces. 🙏

I praise God for my pain

Because He allows me to see through the rain

It is just a storm

The prayers continue to transform

All my pain into a testimony

No I am not trying to be phony

My story is not over

It is hard to find like a 4 leaf clover

Buried among many chapters

I am praying for the rapture

Jesus I don’t know how much more I can take

Take a hold of my soul and shake

Cause me to remain strong

Continue to show me where I belong

Your power is stronger

And keeps me fighting longer

Hold me up

Fill my cup

Cause me to overflow

Pour out so others may grow

Closer to You Lord

It is You alone that I adore❗️
Copyright 2017 KNGMusic & Praise First Publishing


Do You Remember When…

Do you remember the first time you received bad news? Last week my wife was in the hospital with what everyone thought was pneumonia. The doctor did a bronchoscopy and didn’t find any tumors so we thought we were in the clear. The biopsy takes a couple of days to come back. I was the first one to get the phone call and the doctor said, “it is cancer.” I was immediately in shock, I didn’t know how to respond, well how could I other then scream internally and question God why why why?

Kristeen’s mom died from lung cancer that metastasized to her brain about 3.5 years ago, but her mom smoked and was much older. I couldn’t comprehend how this could be happening to such a young woman. My wife has been such a giving person of herself and her time to so many people. I immediately thought God I am not ready to give my wife to you, I need her here, my kids need her here.

Yesterday we met with the oncologist and he gave us what the treatment options are. Of course I wasn’t thrilled with our options or the fact that this cancer is not cureable according to modern day medicine, but I still hold on to the fact that I serve a miracle working God and just because the doctors say there is no way doesn’t mean that God can’t do it. My dad was told he would never walk again and he has been walking for many years still.

The prognosis was very scary, I won’t lie about that, but I had to ask what the doctors thought about how much more time I would have with my wife. Some of you may know and understand that Kristeen is at stage 4 and the cancer has spread from her lungs, to her bones, and even to her brain. I try not to focus on the time we have left, but instead leave time in God’s hand while I take in every moment I have left with my bride. I love my wife and wouldn’t trade her for anything in the world.

I will leave everyone with this, don’t take anything for granted and be thankful for everything that God has blessed you with because in an instant everything can change.

Why I Dumped Tupac – Testimony

Let me explain how this topic came about. Without using any names, “a minister of the gospel” posted a picture of Tupac with something he said on it. I felt led to confront her about the post and how she is all over the board with what she posts from scriptures, to suggestive sexual pictures, to posts that have no purpose. In doing so, someone else responded and said they like Tupac because he spoke truth.

Now let me share my background before I dig any deeper. I grew up in California or as we like to call it – Cali. I went to a school in San Diego that had Bloods and Crypts. I witnessed people getting “jumped into” a gang outside the school grounds. I loved Tupac’s music and bought every album that came out and even the underground and never before released albums after his death. I could sing every song, every curse word, and I could even do the moves from his music videos, so yes you can say I enjoyed his music very much.

One day God convicted me of what I was listening to. I felt God press upon my spirit, how can you listen to music that incites anger and hostility? How could you support music that speaks down to woman like they are nothing and disrespects them constantly? I tried to reason with God and say but I like the beat.

James 1:26 If anyone thinks he is religious and does not bridle his tongue but deceives his heart, this person’s religion is worthless.

How many times when God points out a sin in our lives do we try and reason with God and bend His rules? His rules are set in place to help us see and understand the necessary boundaries for our lives, to help us grow, to help us learn how to be more like Christ. I had failed at being a Christian, could I really call myself a Christian and listen to such filthe?

Revelation 3:15-16 I know your works: you are neither cold nor hot. Would that you were either cold or hot! So, because you are lukewarm, and neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of my mouth.

I share my past and my own personal conviction to help expose the fact that God wants better for us. How can I speak such vile words and then turn around and praise God with the same lips? It doesn’t work that way, I am only deceiving myself. So let us be true to ourselves and examine our own hearts. Are you listening to 50 cent, 2 chainz, Drake, Lil Wayne, etc (and yes I had to look up these names because I left that scene a long time ago)?

Over the years God continues to show me the errors in my ways, the Holy Spirit convicts me, and opens my eyes to the changes that I need to make. If you have taken the time to read this please pause and examine your own walk with God and the music you listen to. I can’t make the decision for you, but if you ask God if the music you listen to is good or bad, He will let you know.

So for the young lady that helped inspire me to share my past tonight, thank you. I know you didn’t want to hear me say we shouldn’t support Tupac because you feel his words are truth, but the reality is that the only real truth we have in life is the word of God. When man speaks “truth”, he is merely sharing his thoughts, feelings, and emotions but it has no weight on helping us be saved. Jesus Christ died on a cross so that we could be freed from our sins and have a new life. Remaining trapped by listening to explicit music is like telling Jesus I don’t care that you sacrificed your life for me. Do not deny the Lord your God.

Matthew 10:32-33 So everyone who acknowledges me before men, I also will acknowledge before my Father who is in heaven, but whoever denies me before men, I also will deny before my Father who is in heaven.

I pray that the testimony of my past has helped you to reexamine your walk with God. Every day is a struggle against evil and we can overcome evil because of the saving grace of Jesus. Don’t remain stuck in your sin because you don’t want to give up what you like. That is your flesh talking and your fleshly desires will only lead you down the wrong path.

Give it all to God and let God work mightily in your life today❗️


Excuses Excuses – Sermon Notes

Is your excuse good enough?

Welcome back to Faith Matters, you won’t believe what happened to me the other day.  I was driving to work and the car started acting up.  I got downtown and then all of a sudden when the light turned green I stepped on the gas and the car wasn’t moving.  Talk about a little scary.  It had a delay before it started moving.  The engine started making some noise and I started praying.  I made it up to the 5th floor of the parking garage and left it there.  I took some time off of work so that I could take it into the dealership to get looked at.  When proceeding down the garage the engine light decided to come on and I was having a problem getting the car to respond properly when I hit the gas.  I pulled over and called for a tow truck.  The tow truck driver couldn’t find me even though I gave him the exact street and location.  Once he got the car in tow we drove to the dealership so they could take a look at it.  I needed a rental and the guy said they didn’t have any more rentals.  I was like okay no big deal; he had to drive me to another location to get me a car.  We get there and the car was dirty, he asked if I wanted it washed and I said no that is fine, I am an easy going person.  He then checked the gas and there was only 1/8th of a tank.  I told him I would need some gas because it is hard to bring back a rental with no gas.  He took it to the gas station and brought it back for me.  Finally, 3 hours after leaving work I was able to go home.  Most people would have lost their lid, but I stayed calm, listened to my Christian music, and read my Bible verses about patience.  Now what happened to me that night you will have to wait until the end of this podcast to hear about.

First, let us open up with prayer because in prayer we can be at peace with the Lord.  Heavenly Father I have had a long brutal day, but because of Your word and Your promises I can still be at peace.  Bad things can happen all around me, but I look to keep my eyes fixed on You during these storms so that I don’t fall into the ocean of despair.  Lord thank you for saving me today from what could have been miserable and turning it into something awesome.  Please help me as I share today some more of my personal testimony and how You have worked in my life.  Let my words touch the hearts of those who are listening.  In the name of Jesus I pray, Amen.

The other day I was having a conversation with one of my close friends Jimmy and something he said sparked my desire for this message.  Jimmy and I have been like two swords that constantly are sharpening each other for the glory of God.

Proverbs 27:17 Iron sharpens iron, and one man sharpens another.

I don’t understand it, but countless times I have said something to Jimmy that has inspired his sermons and he has said something that has inspired my sermons.  I have learned to stop asking and just trust that God wants to use it in a big way.  At first I had that casual thought, maybe it was a coincidence, but it happened repeatedly and too many times to be a coincidence.  It was a God thing and no other way to explain it.

Jimmy was telling me that he wanted to do a podcast about worrying being a sin.  Which he just recently released so if you haven’t heard it please message me and I will send you a direct link.  If you are online reading the notes later then I will add it in for you.

And with that simple statement Jimmy caused me to think about what type of excuses that I have created to cover my own sin or to try and avoid what God has called me too.  I am not going to dig into Jimmy’s topic because I will let him bring that to light, but I do want to discuss excuses and how we let them creep in and take over our lives.

The definition of excuse as a verb is:

Attempt to lessen the blame attaching to (a fault or offense); seek to defend or justify.
release (someone) from a duty or requirement

The definition of excuse as a noun is:
a reason or explanation put forward to defend or justify a fault or offense.
a poor or inadequate example of.

How many times have you come up with an excuse to defend yourself or justify to God why you can’t do something?  I can tell you many times that I gave excuses to God because I didn’t want to do something.

Let’s flash back to my college years when the weekends were my down time.  Almost every single Sunday morning I told God that I was too tired to get up and go to church.  I wanted to sleep in and relax.  Do you want to know why I was so tired?  There was this awesome game that came out called 007 Goldeneye and me and my roommates would stay up to 2 or 3 in the morning playing 2 vs. 2.  We had such a great time, but in doing so I decided I had to cut God out of His time so that I could enjoy myself.

What about the many times that God called upon me to give more money for the missionary that was visiting our church?  How about the times that God told me to pay for someone else to attend a conference?  I never liked giving up my money and if I am being completely honest I was stingy and didn’t feel like I had too.  Now imagine, by me saying no and not providing like God wanted me too, I could have been holding back a blessing from someone else.  So instead of me being a part of a blessing, instead I became this empty vacuum.  I could have been excited and blessed to help someone else, but instead I was being greedy and only focused on me.

Now you may be in that same boat that I was, only concerned about me, how will I make it through, who is going to pay for me?  You see when we give a little, God can give more.  Since changing my attitude I have learned that the more I give the more God gives and it blows my mind.  I have seen it countless times over the past years and I had absolutely no way of explaining how it happened other than God is good.

Luke 6:38 Give, and it will be given to you. Good measure, pressed down, shaken together, running over, will be put into your lap. For with the measure you use it will be measured back to you.

You may be asking yourself, well how does God do this?  That part I can’t explain, I always just say #GodsMath  You see God can do whatever He wants whether or not it makes sense to the human mind.  Trust that He will provide and take those negative excuses and discard them.  It is the excuses that are holding us back from seeing God’s blessing.
What other excuses have you personally given God to try and avoid answering God’s call?  Stop and take a moment to reflect on your life personally.  I challenge you to take that excuse that you have been giving God and make it a reality.  See what other plans that God has for you lined up.  You see how can God continue to give you new challenges if you haven’t conquered the first one?  How can God trust you to work through the storm if you are too afraid to step into the boat?  Make today the day that you change from saying no to saying yes Lord, use me!

At the beginning of the podcast I mentioned that something had happened to me that night when my car had to be taken in and I received the rental.  Later that evening after dinner I got a message from someone at the radio station in Green Bay Wisconsin telling me to tune into the station.  They were actually playing my wife’s song on the Q90FM in Green Bay.  I was speechless; humbled by the fact that God had opened that door.  You see I tried to open that door myself on several occasions and God kept the door closed.  But on the night of the worst day I have had in a while God came through and delivered a blessing for my family.

I share this story with you because I could have given up on Christian Music.  I could have given God yet another excuse and said it is too much work, I don’t have the time, God nothing is happening, but instead I stayed the course and continued to share the gospel even if the music didn’t go any farther than YouTube and iTunes.  I put all my faith and trust in God to lead me where He wanted me to go.

So today I beg you, no more excuses.  God could be waiting to bless you but yet waiting for you to answer His call.

Heavenly Father I thank you for the blessings that You provide.  I thank you for opening my eyes to Your ways and Your perfect timing.  I may want it now, but You alone Lord know when the perfect time is.  Lord, I pray for anyone listening that loves to provide excuses, I pray that You will rid their minds of these excuses and plant in them a willingness to see how You will change their lives for the better just by answering Your call.  Lord please continue to use me in any manner that You see fit.  In the name of Jesus I pray, Amen.

Thank you for tuning in to Faith Matters.  We greatly appreciate you taking the time to listen to our podcasts.  You can download them for free on our website http://www.KNGMusicMinistry.com  If there is a message that blessed you and you know someone else who needs it please feel free to share it.  If my testimonies, trials, and struggles can be a blessing to others then it has all been worth it.  If you would like to contact me, you can do so on Twitter @KNGMusic  Have a blessed day in the Lord.




Why Are You Scared? – Poem

Why are you scared?

I thought you really cared

Jesus declared

I am the way so be prepared

Too many living impaired

Because of Christ you have been spared

Yet you keep living lost

But at what cost?

Your soul covered in frost

Needing to be tossed

Into the oven

Warmed by Jesus’ love in

But what will It take?

You keep trying to break

Every rule like God made a mistake

Maybe an earthquake?

Will chase you to shake

And stop listening to the snake

For God’s sake

Stop being a snowflake

Defrost & be a part of the outbreak

Like winning a sweepstake

You have been nominated

Jesus was hated

But don’t be frustrated

Every soul saved makes the angels elated

Being cool is over rated

You have been created

To be activated

As a soldier we must be animated

So others can be elevated

Teach them the word to be educated

We need to be motivated

The word was provided unadulterated

Let us hold dear

The scriptures that remove fear

Have you put your life in gear?

Are you letting God steer?

We must be sincere

To make sure the enemy can’t interfere

Don’t make Jesus shed another tear

Join with me in cheer

Hell was conquered when Jesus appeared

Because your sins have been cleared

By His blood that was smeared

Your past has disappeared❗


Copyright 2017 KNG Music / Praise First Publishing

The Power of Prayer – Sermon Notes

Hello and welcome back to Faith Matters, I am on fire at the moment so I want to change up the format for this week if you don’t mind.  I just had someone tell me that prayer is pointless.  Prayer is a waste of time.  I am fired up about this and I just have to speak life because I am tired of hearing this death spoken to me.  If prayer didn’t work then how come I didn’t commit suicide when I was a teenager upstairs in my room with the gun sitting next to me?  You want to know why?  Because my mom saw me while she was out in the yard and started praying for me.  God heard her cries and answered them.

Matthew 6:7   “And when you pray, do not heap up empty phrases as the Gentiles do, for they think that they will be heard for their many words.

Don’t just say any words when you are praying, pray with a purpose, pray with conviction.
If prayer doesn’t work then how come my wife and I were given a brand new china cabinet when we needed more space for our groceries?  God new what we needed, we didn’t even know what we wanted to put in that spot but God delivered it to us, free, no shipping, just a man with a smile and said it is yours.

If prayer doesn’t work then how come our prayers were answered with a new minivan for our family?  I had to leave my oldest at home when I went to church because I didn’t have enough space in my car to fit him.  The only thing that my wife and I prayed for was for a DVD system since we travel a lot, but you know what, that wasn’t good enough for God, He delivered us a minivan that was fully loaded.  All glory goes to Him.

Luke 11:9  And I tell you, ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you.

If prayer doesn’t work then how come our prayers were answered when we needed a bigger place?  My wife and I needed a three bedroom establishment for the kids, but we were praying for a four bedroom.  God came through and gave us a three bedroom house with a bonus room.  He even made sure we had a fence in the backyard for the kids and the house was brick so that we could be safe.  How did God know exactly what we wanted and deliver it to us for the price that we could afford?  God hears your cries, God hears your prayers, and God knows what is going on each and every day in your life.  How long will you pretend like He doesn’t exist?  Wake up people.

Jeremiah 33:3  Call to me and I will answer you, and will tell you great and hidden things that you have not known.
If prayer doesn’t work then how did I get custody of my oldest son?  My parents and I prayed and prayed that I would be able to get custody of my son and one day my ex-wife called me up and asked me to take care of him because she couldn’t anymore.  I was shocked and in a state of awe.  God thank you for answering my prayers, thank you for delivering my son unto me.  After the year was over she wanted me to bring him back.  We had to go to court but my prayers were answered yet again when the court gave me primary custody of my son.  When is the last time you heard about a man being awarded custody of his child over his mom?  Prayer and God answering prayer did that!

You see, people want to say that prayer doesn’t work but they are also the same people that don’t pray.  How can God answer your prayers if you never pray to Him?

1 Thessalonians 5:17  Pray without ceasing,

If we really want to have a revival in our world today we need to start praying more.  If you aren’t giving God the time of day and praying then you are like wet logs in a fire pit.  May the Holy Spirit come down upon you and ignite you so that the rest of His church can sing His praises in one accord.  You see the time is short.  The enemy is continuing to spread his lies like a vine that plans to choke out the trees.  If we don’t start doing some weeding in our lives, then the vines shall overtake us and choke our all of the beautiful fruit that God has been working to produce for the harvest.

Heavenly Father please forgive them, forgive them for using Your name in vein.  Forgive them for speaking words that bring death.  Forgive them for not believing in the power of the Holy Spirit.  God we need you now more than ever.  We need you to send Jesus back to us and save us from the troubles of this world.  God we cry to You, send Your love, send Your grace, send Your mercy down upon us.  Please forgive us all for not standing up and answering Your call.  We need Your strength today, in Your name we pray, Jesus.  Amen.

If you would like to contact me you can do so on Twitter @KNGMusic or on our website http://www.KNGMusicMinistry.com  People are always going to attack you because of your faith, but don’t let that attack make you upset, instead smile and know that Your God is awesome and He always has your back.  Have a blessed day and take time to pray today.  God Bless!

The Burning Fire Within


If I say something and it makes a person feel guilty, it is not me trying to convict them but the Holy Spirit. God has changed my life, and I can no longer deny how awesome He is. Almost daily, I am seeing things happening in my life that only He could produce. I still have my struggles, but I always come through them because I know God is just testing my Faith. Imagine looking at the world without fear because you really trust in God to provide for you. What would that look like if you had Faith like that? I am not questioning the Faith of others, but I invite them to question their own Faith. It requires a heartfelt relationship with Jesus to opens one’s eyes, their heart, and their mind. A person can never understand where I am at until they have been there themselves.

If I can be honest, I will walk the line and say there have only been a few Christian people that I have met that stand out as having the Holy Spirit. There is something different about these people but they actually get it. There is one person in particular that I always admired; I wanted to have Faith like her, and be able to pray like her. I could tell that God was always with her. I can finally say that after years and years of being a Christian, I finally get it. Yes, I will admit it that I was a Christian a.k.a. churchgoer that thought all I had to do was go to church, listen to the Pastor, and then be a good person which would lead me to Heaven. I have learned that there is another level, not a cult or anything weird, but a personal relationship with God that is more rewarding. For the past two years, God has been working in my life, pruning branches, testing my Faith with fire. He allowed me to hit rock bottom yet I was at peace with my life. I came to the understanding that in order for me to receive blessings from God, I had to eliminate the things of this world. I started cutting out the things I collected, the music I listened to, the friends I hung out with. Not to say that they were that bad, but if God was to return in this instance, would you give your life for the friend standing next to you? If your answer is no, then they definitely aren’t a good enough friend.

I find myself daily praying to God for the things in my life. Yet, I don’t just pray; I also lift my voice in praise. Even today, with all the negative things that are happening with my wife’s job, I am praising His name because I know He is going to open new doors. I know that this sounds completely strange to praise God when my wife is losing her job, but you can’t understand until your own Faith exceeds your natural vision. It is not what you see and know but what is to come. God continues to blow my mind, and I love every moment. I can’t express it enough. I am sure my friends on Facebook are probably tired of hearing about God (yes most of them Christians), but when it comes down to it, how many of them have the fire burning within? Like I said before, not my place to judge, but if my talking about God and my walk offends someone, then maybe they need to take a step back and think about their walk with God. My goal has changed from becoming some successful guy with a new car and big house to a man that wants to change lives that are broken and lost into those restored and found in Christ. I am standing on my Faith when I tell you that God will one day allow me to reach thousands upon thousands of people and share my story so that all may know His glory and grace.