Waiting For A Breakthrough – Poem

Who am I

A question we all ask but why

Looking for the meaning of life

Yet this life cuts like a knife

A wound deep beneath the skin

Almost like it was built-in

Why do I have this pain

Building up like a bad sprain

Everyone offers help to lift you up

But that is only a momentary pickup

So today who has reached out

Who has helped me with this doubt

I implore you to never give up

Stop trying to cover-up

All the pain that holds you down

All the pain that causes you to frown

All the pain that makes you feel let down

All the pain that makes you want to breakdown

There has to be more

Than what you can buy in the store

I want you to keep singing

Your voice always in my ear bringing

My spirit up

Even when I have a buildup

Of pain

All caught in my brain

But the easy answer

Is there is no cure for cancer

Who dealt me these cards

I have always been on guard

Trying to protect the ones I love

Keep them close to me like a glove

But no matter how hard I try

The end continues to draw nigh

I want to enjoy today

Please don’t push me away

I know you are scared

But that is why Jesus shared

His life on the cross

To remind satan that He was the boss

Today I plead with you

To let go of everything that is making you blue

It is time to restore all that is true

God’s word kicks evil like Kung Fu

I can’t pull you through

But if you have faith Jesus will come through

Can I ask you a question

Will you stop all the aggression

Will you begin with confession

This is just my suggestion

Faith removes the depression

And leaves a positive impression

We are made in the image of God

Except Adam & Eve allowed us to become flawed

Nonetheless by the grace of God

We can now applaud

For God has given us a way

So we will no longer betray

The Son of Man

This has been God’s plan

To sacrifice His only Son

He said “it is finished” & then it was done

God help me remain strong

All the day long

Even when life happens

Help me to continue laughing

I give my life to You

I am waiting for a breakthrough

Copyright 2017 KNG Music & Praise First Publishing

http://www.KNGMusicMinistry.com

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We Didn’t Plan This – Poem

How can you understand

Cancer was never planned

How did this happen

Where is your compassion

People complaining about nothing

Always talking about something

Yet this pain is not leaving

Here I am grieving

The world constantly deceiving

Yet the sheep are still unbelieving

How can I move forward

The questions sound like a broken recorder

How is she doing

Questions sound like they are interviewing

We are waiting on a miracle

Something that is biblical

Not searching for “a” healer

Yet constantly checking for a fever

Looking for “The Healer”

To bind up the cancer like a concealer

Not just hide it

But transform it

Remove the cells that are attacking

While the doctors are tracking

So they can see

That God can do anything

Meanwhile I get inspired

Even when I am tired

God keeps speaking to my mind

Wanting me to reach out to the blind

I am just a man looking to share God’s plan

I reached out to this particular man

Where is the man that wanted to be

More than what the world said he could achieve

A man chasing after God

Instead of trying to avoid the rod

Common man don’t give me this or that

It is time to get back on track

What more are you waiting for

God is standing, knocking, on your front door❗️🚪

I can’t save you

But I can remind you

Jesus died to save you

He won’t run from you

No matter how long it takes

He waits patiently even when we try to be fake

Our feelings may be hurt

Put back on your shirt

Nobody wants to see that

It is time to fall flat

On our faces

And get back in God’s good graces. 🙏

I praise God for my pain

Because He allows me to see through the rain

It is just a storm

The prayers continue to transform

All my pain into a testimony

No I am not trying to be phony

My story is not over

It is hard to find like a 4 leaf clover

Buried among many chapters

I am praying for the rapture

Jesus I don’t know how much more I can take

Take a hold of my soul and shake

Cause me to remain strong

Continue to show me where I belong

Your power is stronger

And keeps me fighting longer

Hold me up

Fill my cup

Cause me to overflow

Pour out so others may grow

Closer to You Lord

It is You alone that I adore❗️
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http://www.KNGMusicMinistry.com

Now That Is Something I Can Applaud❗️ – Poem

Don’t be so raw that you’re hard

Words so sharp they cut like a chard

We need people that speak truth

Bring back that old phone booth

Super Man lost his cover

It’s time for us to rediscover

Jesus died for your heart

He took the shot like a fiery dart

Satan tried Him

God saved Him

Rose again like a boss

But you too busy shopping at Ross

Looking for a bargain

Meanwhile Jesus rose again

He wants to save you

Ring that up, that is true

Stop trying to blow money on worldly things

Salvation is better than a diamond ring

No matter how many times

I keep spitting the same rhyme

It falls on death ears

Too busy drinking them beers

Does the truth hurt

You to busy trying to flirt

Looking for love in all the wrong places

But even CSI can’t find any traces

Love is not found just anywhere

Love is it found at the fair

Love is not found in any pair

Jesus died to remove the despair

Jesus is love

He came from above

To take it all on the cross

To give you access to come across

There is only one way

Don’t let anyone lead you astray

Jesus is the only

Stop falling for the phony

The one true God

Now that is something I can applaud❗️

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http://www.KNGMusicMinistry.com

Do You Remember When…


Do you remember the first time you received bad news? Last week my wife was in the hospital with what everyone thought was pneumonia. The doctor did a bronchoscopy and didn’t find any tumors so we thought we were in the clear. The biopsy takes a couple of days to come back. I was the first one to get the phone call and the doctor said, “it is cancer.” I was immediately in shock, I didn’t know how to respond, well how could I other then scream internally and question God why why why?

Kristeen’s mom died from lung cancer that metastasized to her brain about 3.5 years ago, but her mom smoked and was much older. I couldn’t comprehend how this could be happening to such a young woman. My wife has been such a giving person of herself and her time to so many people. I immediately thought God I am not ready to give my wife to you, I need her here, my kids need her here.

Yesterday we met with the oncologist and he gave us what the treatment options are. Of course I wasn’t thrilled with our options or the fact that this cancer is not cureable according to modern day medicine, but I still hold on to the fact that I serve a miracle working God and just because the doctors say there is no way doesn’t mean that God can’t do it. My dad was told he would never walk again and he has been walking for many years still.

The prognosis was very scary, I won’t lie about that, but I had to ask what the doctors thought about how much more time I would have with my wife. Some of you may know and understand that Kristeen is at stage 4 and the cancer has spread from her lungs, to her bones, and even to her brain. I try not to focus on the time we have left, but instead leave time in God’s hand while I take in every moment I have left with my bride. I love my wife and wouldn’t trade her for anything in the world.

I will leave everyone with this, don’t take anything for granted and be thankful for everything that God has blessed you with because in an instant everything can change.
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Why I Dumped Tupac – Testimony


Let me explain how this topic came about. Without using any names, “a minister of the gospel” posted a picture of Tupac with something he said on it. I felt led to confront her about the post and how she is all over the board with what she posts from scriptures, to suggestive sexual pictures, to posts that have no purpose. In doing so, someone else responded and said they like Tupac because he spoke truth.

Now let me share my background before I dig any deeper. I grew up in California or as we like to call it – Cali. I went to a school in San Diego that had Bloods and Crypts. I witnessed people getting “jumped into” a gang outside the school grounds. I loved Tupac’s music and bought every album that came out and even the underground and never before released albums after his death. I could sing every song, every curse word, and I could even do the moves from his music videos, so yes you can say I enjoyed his music very much.

One day God convicted me of what I was listening to. I felt God press upon my spirit, how can you listen to music that incites anger and hostility? How could you support music that speaks down to woman like they are nothing and disrespects them constantly? I tried to reason with God and say but I like the beat.

James 1:26 If anyone thinks he is religious and does not bridle his tongue but deceives his heart, this person’s religion is worthless.

How many times when God points out a sin in our lives do we try and reason with God and bend His rules? His rules are set in place to help us see and understand the necessary boundaries for our lives, to help us grow, to help us learn how to be more like Christ. I had failed at being a Christian, could I really call myself a Christian and listen to such filthe?

Revelation 3:15-16 I know your works: you are neither cold nor hot. Would that you were either cold or hot! So, because you are lukewarm, and neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of my mouth.

I share my past and my own personal conviction to help expose the fact that God wants better for us. How can I speak such vile words and then turn around and praise God with the same lips? It doesn’t work that way, I am only deceiving myself. So let us be true to ourselves and examine our own hearts. Are you listening to 50 cent, 2 chainz, Drake, Lil Wayne, etc (and yes I had to look up these names because I left that scene a long time ago)?

Over the years God continues to show me the errors in my ways, the Holy Spirit convicts me, and opens my eyes to the changes that I need to make. If you have taken the time to read this please pause and examine your own walk with God and the music you listen to. I can’t make the decision for you, but if you ask God if the music you listen to is good or bad, He will let you know.

So for the young lady that helped inspire me to share my past tonight, thank you. I know you didn’t want to hear me say we shouldn’t support Tupac because you feel his words are truth, but the reality is that the only real truth we have in life is the word of God. When man speaks “truth”, he is merely sharing his thoughts, feelings, and emotions but it has no weight on helping us be saved. Jesus Christ died on a cross so that we could be freed from our sins and have a new life. Remaining trapped by listening to explicit music is like telling Jesus I don’t care that you sacrificed your life for me. Do not deny the Lord your God.

Matthew 10:32-33 So everyone who acknowledges me before men, I also will acknowledge before my Father who is in heaven, but whoever denies me before men, I also will deny before my Father who is in heaven.

I pray that the testimony of my past has helped you to reexamine your walk with God. Every day is a struggle against evil and we can overcome evil because of the saving grace of Jesus. Don’t remain stuck in your sin because you don’t want to give up what you like. That is your flesh talking and your fleshly desires will only lead you down the wrong path.

Give it all to God and let God work mightily in your life today❗️

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Destruction Today But The King Is Soon Coming – Poem


Attacks are all around us

Nobody wants to discuss

Why some are killing

Because others are not willing

How many must die

For you to open an eye

What if it came to your doorstep

Would you just sidestep

The world Is dark & gloomy

It used to be really roomy

Population continues to grow

With no signs of slow

But what will tomorrow hold

If today you are not bold

Will disasters become the new norm

Because we didn’t want to face the storm

Maybe my words are just lost

Because you don’t want to pay the cost

Your time is too precious to you

My words cut when they are true

How many bombs will it take

For you to wake up & partake

The world can’t be changed by just one

Unless that one is God’s only Son

But today He is not here

He chose to disappear

He said He shall return again

Those words have been penned

But how would you know

If you never take the time to grow

I love to share Bible verses

But you are still stuck on the curses

Words that tarnish the heart & soul

Because today everyone is a troll

Attacking those who speak truth

Because they never left the ways of their youth

Lord, I cry out to You

We need You to pull us through

My heart is heavy

Ready to break like a levee

Filled to the max with sorrow

Because there might not be a tomorrow

Jesus today I call upon Your name

Without You we are filled with shame

You healed the lame

Took all my blame

But today I need more

Today I need You to pour

Let the Holy Spirit fall like rain

Let nothing we do be done in vain

Give us strength to maintain

Your blood washed away our stains

Lead us not into temptation

You are our strong foundation

God break down all these walls

Let the Spirit flow like Niagara Falls

Time is running out

We need You to knockout

The rest of this sin

Flex on evil & show them who wins❗️
Copyright 2017 KNG Music & Praise First Publishing

http://www.KNGMusicMinistry.com

Overcome With Sin – Poem

Overcome with sin

Don’t let Jesus in

He will ruin all the fun

And then my life will be done

Just one more time

I still have a dime

Pass the drugs

Just sweep the past under the rug

I want to run away

From everything that wants me to stay

What more can you offer

I will eventually end up in a coffer

Put up on a shelf

Like that little elf

Moved around the room

That will be my doom

Until tomorrow comes

This is what I have become

A vapor of mist

Gone before you can diss

Me or my way of life

I have always lived in strife

Shackled from head to toe

No one to call my little bro

By why would you care

All you ever did was stare

Like I had some strange disease

No wonder I could never please

Caught up in anger and pain

No wonder I am insane

Who can cure my evil thoughts

Dispersed across these parking lots

I roam the streets

Looking for trash that contains treats

Any little piece

That can warm me like bed sheets

Why did you never tell me

That Jesus could set me free

Why did you never share

About how God was really fair

I have continuously suffered

While staying away from this buzzard

He thought I was almost dead

But then someone shared the daily bread

He sat down with me

Opened my eyes to see

As He read each page

I was no longer enraged

He calmed my soul

I received a new goal

He broke all my chains

He put life back in my veins

Jesus You are truly God

Thank you for sparring the rod

I deserved to be thrown in jail

But instead you took 3 nails

You died on a cross for me

You changed my plea

I was guilty as charged

But by grace my sins have been discharged

I now have a chance

To be removed from my trance

Set free to make a difference

And overcome all the indifference

To You I pledge my being

For my wellbeing

Thank you Lord

For bringing me onboard

Oh death where is your sting

Resurrection has a brand new ring

Jesus has overcome

And now I am I longer numb

I sit here and cry

I no longer have to be a tough guy

Praise Your Holy name

You have removed all my shame

Use me Lord to reach the lost

So no one else will be tossed…

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http://www.KNGMusicMinistry.com

Moments of Weakness

Is it okay for me to be weak today?  Lord, I have been listening to your voice, learning to watch for your signs, learning to be still instead of speaking.  In a moment, it feels like a dream has been taken away yet I know you are only protecting me from myself.  I want to be able to provide a stable household for my family, only You know my true desires in this world.  In the past, I have not listened and struck out to conqueror the world.  I have learned from my mistakes and instead turn to You for direction.

At this junction in my life, I felt it was time to obtain a larger home for my family that is growing.  You have shown me that the time is not ripe, You have turned me around and sent me in a new direction.  I am not questioning Your ability to provide, but my own human desires are not able to overlook the wants in my life.  I struggle just like any other man, there is no perfect person that walks this Earth, there was only Your Son Jesus Christ.  I long for Your return, waiting and preparing my life daily so that I may be ready when You return.

I know that this is a test of our Faith; I know that we will get through this storm and that You will be there to greet me with open arms.  I know that Kristeen’s job would not be there forever; I have always felt that You have had a higher calling upon her life.  Today is the first step as You prune her branches.  I know You will use Kristeen’s voice to touch thousands of people that are lost.  My struggle is not what I know but what I don’t know.  My ability to not see Your future plans is like opening my eyes in the Ocean, I can barely see what is in front of me to understand where I am going.  Lord, I place all my trust in You and that You will provide a new job for my wife that opens new doors for her.  I pray that this new opportunity bears more fruit for You.  Kristeen has struggled this year with many life changing events.  Lord, I thank you for our marriage that has been such a blessing for both of our lives.  Then, the loss of her mother was a difficult moment in time, but even in death You were able to allow Kristeen to write a masterpiece.  Lord, all of your people that listen to that song are deeply touched in their souls.  And now today, the loss of a job.  All of these changes in less than 6 months yet we will be Faithful!

I will daily, continually pray that You will guide us, lead us through the open doors, and show us how to be better vessels of Your LOVE.

This is my prayer…

Mourning The Loss of A Loved One

My day started out normal, nothing fancy just another Friday at work. I saw a post on Twitter to someone that said “my brother passed away yesterday” and my heart sank. I immediately thought to myself how much pain this young woman must be going through. I reached out to her and apologized for her loss. I asked her, “was your brother saved?” She said “yes he was” and said he has been struggling the past several years.” I didn’t know what that meant, but I didn’t feel lead to ask anymore details. I told her I was excited that he was saved because Christians mourn the loss, but can’t wait to be reunited in Heaven. I shared with her one of the songs that Kristeen and I wrote together called “Only You”. I told her that I felt this song will lift her up. I said “I pray that God will hold you close in your time of need”. She listened to the song and said, “thank you so much for the beautiful song”. 

Sometimes God will use us or something we have created as a tool to reach the soul of another. Because everything is done with God’s timing my next post was “the loss of a loved one is difficult to manage, but God has a big shoulder for you to cry on. Rejoice in the fact that one day, reunite in Heaven.” A completely different person messaged me and said “its funny that you Tweeted this my cousin just passed away yesterday.” Not by my design, but God’s own timing I wrote something for the pain of one person and it jumped out to the life of another. – Nick