If You Only Knew – Poem

If you only knew

What happened when I was through

I tried to give up

But for some reason God refilled my cup

I tried to run away

But God called me back and invited me to stay

How many times must I try to run

Every time my life comes undone

My pain is more than I can bear

Which is why I cry to Jesus because this world is not fair

Broken relationships almost did me in

Then I was reminded of how Jesus forgives our sin

But God you just don’t understand

How many times I have been burnt, I can’t count them on one hand

Lord I can’t do this anymore

I keep falling and hitting the floor

Why can’t you end this life of mine

You are in charge not Father Time

No matter what the score

I can’t come back anymore

This game is over, I am finished

I was strong like Popeye and his spinach

But then reality set in

And I finally gave in

How can I face tomorrow

When today already has me in sorrow

You don’t understand

I have always been banned

Turned away

Every person pushed, that came my way

But now You say it will all be okay?

How do You know, this pain won’t go away

I pray and pray and ask to be set free

But the shade continues to come like an oak tree

Caught up in darkness no matter how hard I fight

Jesus I think it is time to turn off this light

And say goodnight

Then I will be alright

Stuck in darkness with nothing to see

I don’t think You have the power to break me free

I should have been gone a long time ago

But You came and sat next to me like a bro

God my pain it causes such strain

Just like my newspaper caught in the rain

The words are beginning to smear

Please take away all my fear

I know I can’t do this alone

But thank God You are sitting upon the throne

Help me God to over come

Remove everything that has caused me to become numb

I pray dear God that today will change

I am tired of feeling so strange

My bride needs You more than me

Yet my own fear is all I can see

Lord we pray for continued healing

You know how hard I have been dealing

Trying to get past what satan has been stealing

Back on my knees I continue kneeling

Praying for something more

Praying you will open a new door

We need a breakthrough in her body and for my soul

Restore what satan has stole

God my heart is weak

I come before You, the outcome looks bleak

Please dear God give me more time

The time has come for me to end this rhyme

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My Cry To You – Poem

I am counting every blessing

Especially while I am stressing

God has provided

Even while I was undecided

My world was falling

On Jesus I was calling

Save me Father from all this struggle

Too many things I am trying to juggle

My strength is failing

I turn to You for the unveiling

Of Your promises

Just like doubting Thomas

My faith longs to see Your nail scarred hands

My fears continue to add up like grains of sand

Yet I should cast my fears on You

Because You care for me & that is true

My thoughts fill my mind

They cause me to be blind

Father touch my head

Make it clear instead

Open my life to all that is true

Continue to pull me through

My eyes are full of tears

My pain no one shares

For only I can bear

This struggle has no compare

Others offer help

But all I can do is whelp

My words I do share

So others can see my prayers

I offer up all I have to You my King

Remove this fear & sting

Put up a shield of protection

Remove my sins like an injection

Cure me from all the pain

Set me free from every chain

I call upon Your name

Cleanse me from all blame

God I need You

You are the glue

The substance that holds me together

That calms the weather

Your words bound together by leather

Your voice soft like a feather

Let this Bible teach me

May it bring me to my knees

Teach me to wholly trust

Teach me to always discuss

Your words for all to hear

That soon You draw near❗️

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Hear My Cry Oh Lord – Poem

So now I sit and wait

Wondering if it is too late

Waiting for answers to my questions

Everyone giving me suggestions

Oh what a journey this has been

Asking God when when when

When will this be over

When will Your healing spillover

Day and night we pray

That she will reach her next birthday

Lord we need more time

We know You are working overtime

All of our needs we bring before You

We know there is still much to do

We call upon Your name

The name of Jesus we claim

We cry out with our souls

Please make Kristeen whole

Each day brings new circumstances

Yet You have provided for all of our finances

God you amaze

Our hearts set ablaze

We believe You raised

Jesus Christ as everyone gave praise

Do it again Lord

We pray in one accord

We call upon Thee

To set Kristeen free

Bind up that cancer

You are the only answer

May all the people see

In Jesus name cancer does flee

We place our faith in You

Please make Kristeen brand new

I have entered my cry

Now I wait for Your reply…

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Waiting For A Breakthrough – Poem

Who am I

A question we all ask but why

Looking for the meaning of life

Yet this life cuts like a knife

A wound deep beneath the skin

Almost like it was built-in

Why do I have this pain

Building up like a bad sprain

Everyone offers help to lift you up

But that is only a momentary pickup

So today who has reached out

Who has helped me with this doubt

I implore you to never give up

Stop trying to cover-up

All the pain that holds you down

All the pain that causes you to frown

All the pain that makes you feel let down

All the pain that makes you want to breakdown

There has to be more

Than what you can buy in the store

I want you to keep singing

Your voice always in my ear bringing

My spirit up

Even when I have a buildup

Of pain

All caught in my brain

But the easy answer

Is there is no cure for cancer

Who dealt me these cards

I have always been on guard

Trying to protect the ones I love

Keep them close to me like a glove

But no matter how hard I try

The end continues to draw nigh

I want to enjoy today

Please don’t push me away

I know you are scared

But that is why Jesus shared

His life on the cross

To remind satan that He was the boss

Today I plead with you

To let go of everything that is making you blue

It is time to restore all that is true

God’s word kicks evil like Kung Fu

I can’t pull you through

But if you have faith Jesus will come through

Can I ask you a question

Will you stop all the aggression

Will you begin with confession

This is just my suggestion

Faith removes the depression

And leaves a positive impression

We are made in the image of God

Except Adam & Eve allowed us to become flawed

Nonetheless by the grace of God

We can now applaud

For God has given us a way

So we will no longer betray

The Son of Man

This has been God’s plan

To sacrifice His only Son

He said “it is finished” & then it was done

God help me remain strong

All the day long

Even when life happens

Help me to continue laughing

I give my life to You

I am waiting for a breakthrough

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We Didn’t Plan This – Poem

How can you understand

Cancer was never planned

How did this happen

Where is your compassion

People complaining about nothing

Always talking about something

Yet this pain is not leaving

Here I am grieving

The world constantly deceiving

Yet the sheep are still unbelieving

How can I move forward

The questions sound like a broken recorder

How is she doing

Questions sound like they are interviewing

We are waiting on a miracle

Something that is biblical

Not searching for “a” healer

Yet constantly checking for a fever

Looking for “The Healer”

To bind up the cancer like a concealer

Not just hide it

But transform it

Remove the cells that are attacking

While the doctors are tracking

So they can see

That God can do anything

Meanwhile I get inspired

Even when I am tired

God keeps speaking to my mind

Wanting me to reach out to the blind

I am just a man looking to share God’s plan

I reached out to this particular man

Where is the man that wanted to be

More than what the world said he could achieve

A man chasing after God

Instead of trying to avoid the rod

Common man don’t give me this or that

It is time to get back on track

What more are you waiting for

God is standing, knocking, on your front door❗️🚪

I can’t save you

But I can remind you

Jesus died to save you

He won’t run from you

No matter how long it takes

He waits patiently even when we try to be fake

Our feelings may be hurt

Put back on your shirt

Nobody wants to see that

It is time to fall flat

On our faces

And get back in God’s good graces. 🙏

I praise God for my pain

Because He allows me to see through the rain

It is just a storm

The prayers continue to transform

All my pain into a testimony

No I am not trying to be phony

My story is not over

It is hard to find like a 4 leaf clover

Buried among many chapters

I am praying for the rapture

Jesus I don’t know how much more I can take

Take a hold of my soul and shake

Cause me to remain strong

Continue to show me where I belong

Your power is stronger

And keeps me fighting longer

Hold me up

Fill my cup

Cause me to overflow

Pour out so others may grow

Closer to You Lord

It is You alone that I adore❗️
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Now That Is Something I Can Applaud❗️ – Poem

Don’t be so raw that you’re hard

Words so sharp they cut like a chard

We need people that speak truth

Bring back that old phone booth

Super Man lost his cover

It’s time for us to rediscover

Jesus died for your heart

He took the shot like a fiery dart

Satan tried Him

God saved Him

Rose again like a boss

But you too busy shopping at Ross

Looking for a bargain

Meanwhile Jesus rose again

He wants to save you

Ring that up, that is true

Stop trying to blow money on worldly things

Salvation is better than a diamond ring

No matter how many times

I keep spitting the same rhyme

It falls on death ears

Too busy drinking them beers

Does the truth hurt

You to busy trying to flirt

Looking for love in all the wrong places

But even CSI can’t find any traces

Love is not found just anywhere

Love is it found at the fair

Love is not found in any pair

Jesus died to remove the despair

Jesus is love

He came from above

To take it all on the cross

To give you access to come across

There is only one way

Don’t let anyone lead you astray

Jesus is the only

Stop falling for the phony

The one true God

Now that is something I can applaud❗️

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Do You Remember When…


Do you remember the first time you received bad news? Last week my wife was in the hospital with what everyone thought was pneumonia. The doctor did a bronchoscopy and didn’t find any tumors so we thought we were in the clear. The biopsy takes a couple of days to come back. I was the first one to get the phone call and the doctor said, “it is cancer.” I was immediately in shock, I didn’t know how to respond, well how could I other then scream internally and question God why why why?

Kristeen’s mom died from lung cancer that metastasized to her brain about 3.5 years ago, but her mom smoked and was much older. I couldn’t comprehend how this could be happening to such a young woman. My wife has been such a giving person of herself and her time to so many people. I immediately thought God I am not ready to give my wife to you, I need her here, my kids need her here.

Yesterday we met with the oncologist and he gave us what the treatment options are. Of course I wasn’t thrilled with our options or the fact that this cancer is not cureable according to modern day medicine, but I still hold on to the fact that I serve a miracle working God and just because the doctors say there is no way doesn’t mean that God can’t do it. My dad was told he would never walk again and he has been walking for many years still.

The prognosis was very scary, I won’t lie about that, but I had to ask what the doctors thought about how much more time I would have with my wife. Some of you may know and understand that Kristeen is at stage 4 and the cancer has spread from her lungs, to her bones, and even to her brain. I try not to focus on the time we have left, but instead leave time in God’s hand while I take in every moment I have left with my bride. I love my wife and wouldn’t trade her for anything in the world.

I will leave everyone with this, don’t take anything for granted and be thankful for everything that God has blessed you with because in an instant everything can change.
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Love Is Tricky – Poem


Love isn’t just an emotion

Or even a magic potion

God designed it with a purpose

He provides a surplus

When you are all alone

You can feel Him in your bones

Your eyes can not see

But in the Trinity there is three

Why do we not trust

Broken down with rust

Bent out of shape

Pieced together with tape

Lord we hurt so much

We long for Your touch

Shine your light upon us

Help me not to cuss

So many thoughts trapped inside

How come I can’t find a bride

I want to feel complete

I want someone sweet

To have and to hold

Before I get too old

Show me your plan

Teach me to be a fisherman

Not just for someone for me

But also to help others see

That Your plan is better

For You I write this letter

Help me to love

Help me to find truelove

I am willing to trust my life to You

Make my dark skies turn blue

With Christ I can overcome

Help me to become

The person you made me to be

Together let’s agree

That alone I will fail

But with You I can sail

No longer left all alone

Because you have shown

Me how to love and expect nothing

Your love is very touching

With You I am made whole

I have finally found my self-control

Bring me someone special

I promise to be careful

Love them like You have loved me

Together we will cross the sea

Whatever it takes

No matter how high the stakes

We will give you the glory

And that is my story…

Why I Dumped Tupac – Testimony


Let me explain how this topic came about. Without using any names, “a minister of the gospel” posted a picture of Tupac with something he said on it. I felt led to confront her about the post and how she is all over the board with what she posts from scriptures, to suggestive sexual pictures, to posts that have no purpose. In doing so, someone else responded and said they like Tupac because he spoke truth.

Now let me share my background before I dig any deeper. I grew up in California or as we like to call it – Cali. I went to a school in San Diego that had Bloods and Crypts. I witnessed people getting “jumped into” a gang outside the school grounds. I loved Tupac’s music and bought every album that came out and even the underground and never before released albums after his death. I could sing every song, every curse word, and I could even do the moves from his music videos, so yes you can say I enjoyed his music very much.

One day God convicted me of what I was listening to. I felt God press upon my spirit, how can you listen to music that incites anger and hostility? How could you support music that speaks down to woman like they are nothing and disrespects them constantly? I tried to reason with God and say but I like the beat.

James 1:26 If anyone thinks he is religious and does not bridle his tongue but deceives his heart, this person’s religion is worthless.

How many times when God points out a sin in our lives do we try and reason with God and bend His rules? His rules are set in place to help us see and understand the necessary boundaries for our lives, to help us grow, to help us learn how to be more like Christ. I had failed at being a Christian, could I really call myself a Christian and listen to such filthe?

Revelation 3:15-16 I know your works: you are neither cold nor hot. Would that you were either cold or hot! So, because you are lukewarm, and neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of my mouth.

I share my past and my own personal conviction to help expose the fact that God wants better for us. How can I speak such vile words and then turn around and praise God with the same lips? It doesn’t work that way, I am only deceiving myself. So let us be true to ourselves and examine our own hearts. Are you listening to 50 cent, 2 chainz, Drake, Lil Wayne, etc (and yes I had to look up these names because I left that scene a long time ago)?

Over the years God continues to show me the errors in my ways, the Holy Spirit convicts me, and opens my eyes to the changes that I need to make. If you have taken the time to read this please pause and examine your own walk with God and the music you listen to. I can’t make the decision for you, but if you ask God if the music you listen to is good or bad, He will let you know.

So for the young lady that helped inspire me to share my past tonight, thank you. I know you didn’t want to hear me say we shouldn’t support Tupac because you feel his words are truth, but the reality is that the only real truth we have in life is the word of God. When man speaks “truth”, he is merely sharing his thoughts, feelings, and emotions but it has no weight on helping us be saved. Jesus Christ died on a cross so that we could be freed from our sins and have a new life. Remaining trapped by listening to explicit music is like telling Jesus I don’t care that you sacrificed your life for me. Do not deny the Lord your God.

Matthew 10:32-33 So everyone who acknowledges me before men, I also will acknowledge before my Father who is in heaven, but whoever denies me before men, I also will deny before my Father who is in heaven.

I pray that the testimony of my past has helped you to reexamine your walk with God. Every day is a struggle against evil and we can overcome evil because of the saving grace of Jesus. Don’t remain stuck in your sin because you don’t want to give up what you like. That is your flesh talking and your fleshly desires will only lead you down the wrong path.

Give it all to God and let God work mightily in your life today❗️

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