If You Only Knew – Poem

If you only knew

What happened when I was through

I tried to give up

But for some reason God refilled my cup

I tried to run away

But God called me back and invited me to stay

How many times must I try to run

Every time my life comes undone

My pain is more than I can bear

Which is why I cry to Jesus because this world is not fair

Broken relationships almost did me in

Then I was reminded of how Jesus forgives our sin

But God you just don’t understand

How many times I have been burnt, I can’t count them on one hand

Lord I can’t do this anymore

I keep falling and hitting the floor

Why can’t you end this life of mine

You are in charge not Father Time

No matter what the score

I can’t come back anymore

This game is over, I am finished

I was strong like Popeye and his spinach

But then reality set in

And I finally gave in

How can I face tomorrow

When today already has me in sorrow

You don’t understand

I have always been banned

Turned away

Every person pushed, that came my way

But now You say it will all be okay?

How do You know, this pain won’t go away

I pray and pray and ask to be set free

But the shade continues to come like an oak tree

Caught up in darkness no matter how hard I fight

Jesus I think it is time to turn off this light

And say goodnight

Then I will be alright

Stuck in darkness with nothing to see

I don’t think You have the power to break me free

I should have been gone a long time ago

But You came and sat next to me like a bro

God my pain it causes such strain

Just like my newspaper caught in the rain

The words are beginning to smear

Please take away all my fear

I know I can’t do this alone

But thank God You are sitting upon the throne

Help me God to over come

Remove everything that has caused me to become numb

I pray dear God that today will change

I am tired of feeling so strange

My bride needs You more than me

Yet my own fear is all I can see

Lord we pray for continued healing

You know how hard I have been dealing

Trying to get past what satan has been stealing

Back on my knees I continue kneeling

Praying for something more

Praying you will open a new door

We need a breakthrough in her body and for my soul

Restore what satan has stole

God my heart is weak

I come before You, the outcome looks bleak

Please dear God give me more time

The time has come for me to end this rhyme

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My Cry To You – Poem

I am counting every blessing

Especially while I am stressing

God has provided

Even while I was undecided

My world was falling

On Jesus I was calling

Save me Father from all this struggle

Too many things I am trying to juggle

My strength is failing

I turn to You for the unveiling

Of Your promises

Just like doubting Thomas

My faith longs to see Your nail scarred hands

My fears continue to add up like grains of sand

Yet I should cast my fears on You

Because You care for me & that is true

My thoughts fill my mind

They cause me to be blind

Father touch my head

Make it clear instead

Open my life to all that is true

Continue to pull me through

My eyes are full of tears

My pain no one shares

For only I can bear

This struggle has no compare

Others offer help

But all I can do is whelp

My words I do share

So others can see my prayers

I offer up all I have to You my King

Remove this fear & sting

Put up a shield of protection

Remove my sins like an injection

Cure me from all the pain

Set me free from every chain

I call upon Your name

Cleanse me from all blame

God I need You

You are the glue

The substance that holds me together

That calms the weather

Your words bound together by leather

Your voice soft like a feather

Let this Bible teach me

May it bring me to my knees

Teach me to wholly trust

Teach me to always discuss

Your words for all to hear

That soon You draw near❗️

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Copyright 2018 KNG Music & Praise First Publishing

We Didn’t Plan This – Poem

How can you understand

Cancer was never planned

How did this happen

Where is your compassion

People complaining about nothing

Always talking about something

Yet this pain is not leaving

Here I am grieving

The world constantly deceiving

Yet the sheep are still unbelieving

How can I move forward

The questions sound like a broken recorder

How is she doing

Questions sound like they are interviewing

We are waiting on a miracle

Something that is biblical

Not searching for “a” healer

Yet constantly checking for a fever

Looking for “The Healer”

To bind up the cancer like a concealer

Not just hide it

But transform it

Remove the cells that are attacking

While the doctors are tracking

So they can see

That God can do anything

Meanwhile I get inspired

Even when I am tired

God keeps speaking to my mind

Wanting me to reach out to the blind

I am just a man looking to share God’s plan

I reached out to this particular man

Where is the man that wanted to be

More than what the world said he could achieve

A man chasing after God

Instead of trying to avoid the rod

Common man don’t give me this or that

It is time to get back on track

What more are you waiting for

God is standing, knocking, on your front door❗️🚪

I can’t save you

But I can remind you

Jesus died to save you

He won’t run from you

No matter how long it takes

He waits patiently even when we try to be fake

Our feelings may be hurt

Put back on your shirt

Nobody wants to see that

It is time to fall flat

On our faces

And get back in God’s good graces. 🙏

I praise God for my pain

Because He allows me to see through the rain

It is just a storm

The prayers continue to transform

All my pain into a testimony

No I am not trying to be phony

My story is not over

It is hard to find like a 4 leaf clover

Buried among many chapters

I am praying for the rapture

Jesus I don’t know how much more I can take

Take a hold of my soul and shake

Cause me to remain strong

Continue to show me where I belong

Your power is stronger

And keeps me fighting longer

Hold me up

Fill my cup

Cause me to overflow

Pour out so others may grow

Closer to You Lord

It is You alone that I adore❗️
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Do You Remember When…


Do you remember the first time you received bad news? Last week my wife was in the hospital with what everyone thought was pneumonia. The doctor did a bronchoscopy and didn’t find any tumors so we thought we were in the clear. The biopsy takes a couple of days to come back. I was the first one to get the phone call and the doctor said, “it is cancer.” I was immediately in shock, I didn’t know how to respond, well how could I other then scream internally and question God why why why?

Kristeen’s mom died from lung cancer that metastasized to her brain about 3.5 years ago, but her mom smoked and was much older. I couldn’t comprehend how this could be happening to such a young woman. My wife has been such a giving person of herself and her time to so many people. I immediately thought God I am not ready to give my wife to you, I need her here, my kids need her here.

Yesterday we met with the oncologist and he gave us what the treatment options are. Of course I wasn’t thrilled with our options or the fact that this cancer is not cureable according to modern day medicine, but I still hold on to the fact that I serve a miracle working God and just because the doctors say there is no way doesn’t mean that God can’t do it. My dad was told he would never walk again and he has been walking for many years still.

The prognosis was very scary, I won’t lie about that, but I had to ask what the doctors thought about how much more time I would have with my wife. Some of you may know and understand that Kristeen is at stage 4 and the cancer has spread from her lungs, to her bones, and even to her brain. I try not to focus on the time we have left, but instead leave time in God’s hand while I take in every moment I have left with my bride. I love my wife and wouldn’t trade her for anything in the world.

I will leave everyone with this, don’t take anything for granted and be thankful for everything that God has blessed you with because in an instant everything can change.
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Love Is Tricky – Poem


Love isn’t just an emotion

Or even a magic potion

God designed it with a purpose

He provides a surplus

When you are all alone

You can feel Him in your bones

Your eyes can not see

But in the Trinity there is three

Why do we not trust

Broken down with rust

Bent out of shape

Pieced together with tape

Lord we hurt so much

We long for Your touch

Shine your light upon us

Help me not to cuss

So many thoughts trapped inside

How come I can’t find a bride

I want to feel complete

I want someone sweet

To have and to hold

Before I get too old

Show me your plan

Teach me to be a fisherman

Not just for someone for me

But also to help others see

That Your plan is better

For You I write this letter

Help me to love

Help me to find truelove

I am willing to trust my life to You

Make my dark skies turn blue

With Christ I can overcome

Help me to become

The person you made me to be

Together let’s agree

That alone I will fail

But with You I can sail

No longer left all alone

Because you have shown

Me how to love and expect nothing

Your love is very touching

With You I am made whole

I have finally found my self-control

Bring me someone special

I promise to be careful

Love them like You have loved me

Together we will cross the sea

Whatever it takes

No matter how high the stakes

We will give you the glory

And that is my story…

Destruction Today But The King Is Soon Coming – Poem


Attacks are all around us

Nobody wants to discuss

Why some are killing

Because others are not willing

How many must die

For you to open an eye

What if it came to your doorstep

Would you just sidestep

The world Is dark & gloomy

It used to be really roomy

Population continues to grow

With no signs of slow

But what will tomorrow hold

If today you are not bold

Will disasters become the new norm

Because we didn’t want to face the storm

Maybe my words are just lost

Because you don’t want to pay the cost

Your time is too precious to you

My words cut when they are true

How many bombs will it take

For you to wake up & partake

The world can’t be changed by just one

Unless that one is God’s only Son

But today He is not here

He chose to disappear

He said He shall return again

Those words have been penned

But how would you know

If you never take the time to grow

I love to share Bible verses

But you are still stuck on the curses

Words that tarnish the heart & soul

Because today everyone is a troll

Attacking those who speak truth

Because they never left the ways of their youth

Lord, I cry out to You

We need You to pull us through

My heart is heavy

Ready to break like a levee

Filled to the max with sorrow

Because there might not be a tomorrow

Jesus today I call upon Your name

Without You we are filled with shame

You healed the lame

Took all my blame

But today I need more

Today I need You to pour

Let the Holy Spirit fall like rain

Let nothing we do be done in vain

Give us strength to maintain

Your blood washed away our stains

Lead us not into temptation

You are our strong foundation

God break down all these walls

Let the Spirit flow like Niagara Falls

Time is running out

We need You to knockout

The rest of this sin

Flex on evil & show them who wins❗️
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If I …


If I poured my heart out to you, would you stop & listen?

If I had a story to share would you have a moment to hear?

How many times have I said my day is fine, but you never cared enough to question me?

If I was drowning would you stop to save me?

If I was stuck in a fire would you jump in to rescue me?

If I was living in sin, would you care enough to share the truth?

So many questions and yet how would you respond? Do we care enough about our brothers and sisters to be there in crucial moments. Is your Christian walk just a walk or is it a marathon that you are chasing after God? As we walk closer with the Lord the answers to these many questions become so clear. You won’t have to second guess, you won’t have to worry, doubt, or even let fear creep in. Jesus died on the cross to allow the Holy Spirit to dwell in you. Never take for granted the promises that are stated in the word of God. You are a child of God, you are the salt and light of this world, you can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens you. Stop worrying about who will be offended. Won’t they be more upset if they are burning in a lake of fire and you never said a word?

God Provides Much – Poem


You thought it would be better

Until you felt cold like a winter with no sweater

You ran to where you thought was safe

Not realizing it caused your soul to chafe

You want to get back to where you once were

But the past has become a blur

You want to have what you once did

But the past was closed with a tight lid

How can you get back

When you lost the track

You can try to recreate

Doesn’t mean the food will taste the same on that plate

The weight of that decision

Has caused you to seek out a new vision

Maybe we can change & morph into something new

Or maybe you just lost that sticky glue

That kept it all together

Despite the painful cold weather

But now it is a new season

You keep looking for the reason

Why did God close that door

Why did you get knocked to the floor

Man will try many things to draw you in

But be careful not to let it be a sin

Life is full of many decisions

Be sure to pray for God’s provisions

If we take the wrong path

It could lead to God’s wrath

So choose wisely & don’t make haste

Because your decisions must be faced

Let your relationship with God be the true reason

That you have chosen to fall into this season

Never let anyone drive you to breaking

It is time for our eyes to begin waking

The truth is exposed for all to see

I pray that you will fall to your knee

Come back to where God wants you to be

Under the branches of this olive tree

Under His wing is warm & calm

When is the last time you read the Psalm

The word of God helps bring us wisdom

When dealing with topics outside of the kingdom

Trust God to open your eyes

To anyone who tries to bring you lies

I wish nothing but the best for you

Even if you decide to leave this crew

Make sure it is God who is calling

And not just your spirit which is stalling

The true voice of God speaks strong

He wants His family to all get along

So stop trying to divide

When Christ says the Church is my bride

Together united we will win

Continue to search within

For the call that God keeps placing

He wants to keep embracing

The feelings that you keep chasing

Together we must be facing

The time is short

Bring it all into God’s court

Let us not contort

The truth but instead show support

God teach us to trust

And no longer combust

Over things that are unjust

Instead we thrust

All our emotions, feelings, and such

To the Lord my God who provides much.

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Overcome With Sin – Poem

Overcome with sin

Don’t let Jesus in

He will ruin all the fun

And then my life will be done

Just one more time

I still have a dime

Pass the drugs

Just sweep the past under the rug

I want to run away

From everything that wants me to stay

What more can you offer

I will eventually end up in a coffer

Put up on a shelf

Like that little elf

Moved around the room

That will be my doom

Until tomorrow comes

This is what I have become

A vapor of mist

Gone before you can diss

Me or my way of life

I have always lived in strife

Shackled from head to toe

No one to call my little bro

By why would you care

All you ever did was stare

Like I had some strange disease

No wonder I could never please

Caught up in anger and pain

No wonder I am insane

Who can cure my evil thoughts

Dispersed across these parking lots

I roam the streets

Looking for trash that contains treats

Any little piece

That can warm me like bed sheets

Why did you never tell me

That Jesus could set me free

Why did you never share

About how God was really fair

I have continuously suffered

While staying away from this buzzard

He thought I was almost dead

But then someone shared the daily bread

He sat down with me

Opened my eyes to see

As He read each page

I was no longer enraged

He calmed my soul

I received a new goal

He broke all my chains

He put life back in my veins

Jesus You are truly God

Thank you for sparring the rod

I deserved to be thrown in jail

But instead you took 3 nails

You died on a cross for me

You changed my plea

I was guilty as charged

But by grace my sins have been discharged

I now have a chance

To be removed from my trance

Set free to make a difference

And overcome all the indifference

To You I pledge my being

For my wellbeing

Thank you Lord

For bringing me onboard

Oh death where is your sting

Resurrection has a brand new ring

Jesus has overcome

And now I am I longer numb

I sit here and cry

I no longer have to be a tough guy

Praise Your Holy name

You have removed all my shame

Use me Lord to reach the lost

So no one else will be tossed…

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